today is my best friend's birthday^^
everything went badly on last Saturday
the melting ice-cream made me crazy
i should take brother's advise
although it was hurt , it was right
'nobody will eat it, just a waste of money..'
well , friends disappointed me as really nobody came
i just can try my best to enjoy with the lion dance
unluckily things happened again~!!
the shop was being spoiled
had to be repaired again
haiz~ couldn't do any business
i was so sad about it when i saw brother's moody look
but still , i was happy to c u
i did what i promised~ treated u a coconut jelly if u come
here , i would like to thank eleena
because she was the only 1 who going to the party
i was so surprising to see her there!!
love u so much my dear~
i went to jusco by ivan's car
OMG~ such a stupid traffic jam
in kbox , i was so shocked that i saw u cried
i was so heart pain to c u shedding your tears
n didn't wanna to tell me what's going on
what can i do was just hugging u
what can i do to protect u well??
i was the 1 who made u cried again right??
i was so so so SORRY
i was so happy to meet my good friends
1 of them returned to the room after she left
as she knew that i was moody
thanks for coming in to accompany me
even though both of u just came for a while
but u girls came in a right time
even messages from both of u supported me much
as i was very moody on that time
because i knew that i did n posted something wrongly
as i made 2 sisters suffered n sad of it
SORRY MY BELOVED SISTERS~
kbox is a place where i get a lot of memories
memories flashing back in my mind whenever i go in
i miss u so much at that moment
do u know it?? no , u won't~
the dark surroundings...
the song between us...
the meaningful lyrics of the songs...
do really make me cry every time i go in
because it was just too suitable
and nobody will know it
DEAR , I MISS U SO MUCH~~
unhappy moments had over
mui , thanks for trying to cheer me up
although u were the 1 crying too
i did really very happy to hang out with u
i enjoyed myself immensely
especially just left both of us^^
u said u really didn't know u are such important to me
n knew it now n told me actually i was that important to u too=)
haha~ arigato~
u scared that u had disappointed me so i won't mind u anymore?
NO!! U WERE TOTALLY WRONG
u r always so important to me
the previous time , now , in the future...
are just the same.. NEVER CHANGE~
i met many people today
met my classmate pui ling
my camp leader eric
n i met gor too
he was dating with her new girlfriend
truly , i was so happy to c them looked so sweet
but i was a bit envied about that too
because i have no boyfriend now
when can i being protected by someone who love me??
any other chance for us?
@@ huh~ i don't know~
i thought i can go clubbing with u
but sister didn't wanna go
HAIZ~ but never mind la
as i was very tired
the next day gonna go parade again wert^^
i thought i would be very down the whole day
but i didn't
thanks for changing everything^^
i saw rainbow today
it was just too nice
n u r the 1st 1 n only 1 appeared in my mind
i looked towards the direction of your class
n i did really see u!!
u were so excited n looking at the rainbow with your friends
i was noticing your every action but u didn't know
haha~ m y little mui was just too CUTE^^
i was looking forward for tomorrow to meet u!!
i wanna to have fun with u as that is not an easy chance=)
i was so confident that u will be going to the party!
if whole world don't go , u b the only is more than enough
well, u told me that u cannot go
i thought it was just because of your mum doesn't allow
so its okay as i couldn't force u
but then... i knew that u r going to meet somebody else
i was so hurt when i knew it
y?? i also don't know
just very didn't syok with it
although i knew that u expected me to go with u too
it seemed showing that u r actually just wanna go gaigai
i was totally in disappointment when i got that from others
u r my best friend
so i mind it very much
u r the 1 i most hope that u r going
but u r not
just because u don't know why u want to go there??
whenever u be by my side when i need, just in sms
do u know actually i need u very much
just like how u need me to support u in your competition
it is the same to me
but u didn't go before
never mind as u were busy that time
this time... i thought there will be no excuses for it
who knows.. the same answer from u that u r not going
maybe u don't know~~
i will be in trouble if i m alone there tomorrow
nobody will care me
nobody will talk to me
that's what happen to me whenever my family gather together
the youngest (me) will always be ignored
that's y i invited a lot of friends so that i can enjoy with u all
n.. i do really need u much at this moment
but NONE of u r going
haiz~~ when do i can really get support from u?
this is the 2nd time u disappointed me
n i hope it will be the last time
however , sorry s i knew that i hurt u too
as i was very cool
but i was really speechless on that time
n i just hope u can enjoy with what had u planned
i was so disappointed when u girls told me 1 by 1 that u r not going
i invited all of u with my true heart as i wanna share the happiness with u all
i won't angry if your parents don't allow or u are busy for tomorrow
but someone told me she don't want to go
just because i m going to friend's birthday party but not going jj with her
so she think it is so meaningless for her to go for the buffet party too
well , i hate her reason so much when i read her message
because she was just saying that her main point is just wanna hang out with me
but not going to congrats my brother n sister
not going to accompany n share the happiness with me
u wanna tell me that u can go jj but n transport to come to the new shop??
such a stupid reason
i cannot accept it at all as there are just very NEAR!!
so the conclusion is , nobody is going tomorrow
i will be very boring there s i can do nothing n know nobody
haiz~ i m not looking forward for it anymore
as i know i cannot enjoy it without your appearance
again... i was crying in the lab
y was i cried so often nowadays??
i hate myself so much
for not being tough enough
y i always cried in the lab??
haiz~~ maybe it was so suitable to cry as nobody will know it
crying is now becomes my way to express
i prefer the previous me
can express better but the ways were stupid
i would eat spicy or sour food
i love it much but i couldn't stand for it
as i would get gastric
but i m totally hating myself for dropping my tears so easily now
i wished to become the previous me
nobody will know i was unhappy
as i could just pretend laughing very well
but.. i lost myself.. couldn't get it back anymore
what did i do wrong?
y both of u wanna hurt me like that?
i never excuse myself for doing things
but u were the 1 ignored me
then y were u angering with me?
i sensed what did u 2 discuss
but i just kept silent n waiting for u to voice out
finally.. she came n said 'eh , change place next week..'
i thought i was ready for it??
then y would i get hurt of her words?
i just ignored
n started to drop my tears again
because i was so angry with it
u didn't even ask me but u were just informing me after both of u made decision?
who m i for u?
just a ball??
u were the 1 who wanna sit with me
n separated my dear n me
then now u no need me anymore then 'returned' me to my dear?
so FUNNY!! n still , u didn't know what happened
n still dare to ask me y was i unhappy
GOSH~ i was totally disappointed with both of u
i know , i was just a replacement for everyone
everyone will find me when they r having problems with best friend
well , i m willing to help s long s u r happy
but then after the problem being solved
all of u will just forget about me s u get your own best friend
y m i so loyal to all of my friends??
or maybe i m just too stupid??
i attended st john ambulance Malaysia state competition on Saturday n yesterday
i went there just to give my supports to my division
especially for my little soh mui^^
did my appearance make u became more confident??
i thought NO le~
well , nc was not confident
they thought themselves couldn't make into national
its okay^^ s long s u all did try your best=)
however , i was so surprised when the results were announced
i was very happy too!!
both of our team made themselves to the final!!
we were the overall champion!!
walao eh~~ unexpected
we were the worst during the area competition n now we were the best!!
i felt happy was not because they won
was just because they did improve
a lot... everyone of them did
n the main point... they beat down THAT school
wakaka ( not to mention what school is that)
again.. my little mui got prize in her written test
some mor champion!! i clapped my hand so loudly when i heard her name!!
geng nya~~ i was so happy with it!!
this time i need not to borrow my shoulder to u
haha.. do u know??
i just couldn't stop smiling on u
'u must go kl a~'
haha~ thanks for the invitation ya mui~
u were very worrying that i won't go right??
well , i tel u my answer here~
no matter how far u go n how difficult the future road is
i m always here to stay by your side
just to support u whenever u need me^^
NA n NC from sjam amc~~
u girls did a good job=)
must continue gambateh!!
keep it up^^
i got a news from miss heong
someone said we won poi lam was just because we friend with the judge
what logic was this??
i was so angry when i heard it
because she was 1 of the teachers of our school!!
n i did very like her before
i was totally disappointed to her
she had no more good image in my heart
she doesn't know anything about debate...
so she is DISQUALIFIED to judge anything
she is not a debater...
so she is DISQUALIFIED to look down us
she is not our teacher...
so she is DISQUALIFIED to say we didn't work hard
she didn't put in any effort...
so she is DISQUALIFIED to hurt my beloved teammates!!
we could go into the final was based on the effort that we put in
we could win was because we deserved it!
so nobody can simply say something bad about us
especially those who don't even know what debate is
it is not an easy job
does she know how much hard work that we need to put in to get this achievement??!!
she doesn't know AT ALL
so can she just stop saying nonsense??!!
I HATE HER MUCH NOW~~
the state Chinese debate competition was over
we lose in to hua lian in the final=(
on that morning , i was so not feeling well
but i stood for it n finally i went up to the stage
but... i just couldn't fully concentrate when the competition was on
i was a failure~ i was a disqualified debater
because i couldn't put everything down before went up to the stage
OMG~~ it was so pain.. i was so suffer during the competition
finally.. it went to the end
we came down n cried
as we knew , we didn't do well
we did not do our best
we spotted right what were their points
we discussed how to fight against them before
but what happened to us??
we did not do what had we prepared
because i was not feeling well??
because we were tired??
because we were nervous??
haiz~ i didn't know
as it was not important anymore
it was over
n the fact was just what we expected
WE LOSE~~
haix~ i viewed every one's profile
having my semi-final debate competition today
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