something from her~~

when i reached school

jessmin showed me something

i saw many 'sorry' wrote on the whiteboard

it was to me but i didn't know what happened

i looked down to the right corner

chai yan's name was there

she said sorry to me?? 270 words of sorry

why? what happened?? she looked at me

after she finished talking to mr lai

she came towards me and passed me a letter

i had a look on it

she said she knew what had she said and hurt me

she was not purposely to do it

she told me that her mood was very bad yesterday

she never mind with what people said about her

she won't even mind if got anyone hate her

but after argued with me , she got very moody

she didn't like the feel of arguing with me

argue with me and others are not the same??

but she doesn't even want to argue with others

cause she doesn't feel want to bother what they say

chai yan lao gong..

i didn't aim to argue with you

just my mood not good yesterday

and really angry with what you said

sorry~~ hope our friendship will remain the same^^

durin the meeting...

she played my hair..shocked me

she was the only 1 who realised that i was not well

and cared for me.. hehe.. thx~~

-it is SUCKS-

THERE'S A MEETING FOR ALL CAMP OC TODAY
I WENT TO SCHOOL WISH A SLEEPY CONDITION
OH DAMN~~ I WAS HAVING A SERIOUSLY P PAIN!!
WHEN I RETURNED HOME , THERE WAS NOBODY
I FELT SO DISAPPOINTED BECAUSE I NEED THEM MUCH
I WENT FOR BATHE.. IT GETTING MORE SERIOUS
I SMS HIM.. BUT HE WAS NOT THAT SUPPORT ME
I THOUGHT WE ARGUED AGAIN.. HAIZ~~
WHEN MY MUM RETURNED HOME
I ASKED HER WHETHER SHE WOULD COOK
SHE DIDN'T GIVE ME A GOOD ANSWER
STILL BLAMED THAT I BATHED SLOW
OMG.. DON'T SHE KNOW THAT I CAN'T GET HUNGRY??
I WOULD GET GASTRIC.. WUWU~ PITY ME
HAIZ~~ NOBODY REALISED WHY WAS I LYING ON THE SOFA
HUGGING MY PILLOW AND SAT A SIDE
NOBODY ASKED ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED TO ME
WHY SEEMED NOBODY CARE ME ON THIS WORLD??
AM I REALLY THAT NO WORTH TO BEING CARED??
TEARS DRIPPING DOWN FROM MY EYES
I HATE MY LIFE. HATE MY LONELY LIFE..
HATE MY HOME.. IT HAD CHANGED
LAST TIME THAT HOME SWEET HOME HAD LOST
I COULDN'T FIND IT BACK ANYMORE
IT DOESN'T BELONG TO ME NOW
I FED UP.. I WISHED TO RUN AWAY FROM THIS HOME
AS FAR AS I COULD.. IT IS JUST A COLD FEELING HERE
THAT'S WHY I RATHER ALWAYS STAY AT SCHOOL
AT LEAST I CAN CHAT WITH MY FRIENDS
I FIND THAT EVEN ST JOHN IS A WARMER 'HOME' FOR ME
EVERYBODY CARES ME IN THIS SOCIETY
I LOVE EVERYONE THERE MUCH
ESPECIALLY THE F4 COMMITTEE
MY BIG FAMILY THERE.. MY LGs , LP , LUIs N MUIs

fate??

i went for my dinner just now

just at a shop near my house

i sms on the way to there

i got shock when i reached

i saw a boy was typing message

ya.. that's him - wai loon

he looked up at me

both of us got shocked

and laughed secretly

our parents didn't know

we didn't tell each other

that we'll be there at all

but we met there

haha.. is this called fate?

should i be happy of it??

both of us sat so near

but just can keep on sms-ing

don't even say hi to each other

haiz~~ pity-nya.. t.t

tagged

被点到必填，
不填代表你不尊重传给你的人和问卷。

(1) 请老实的回答每一个问题。
(2) 不行擅自塗改題目。
(3) 写完请点10位小朋友，不可不点。
(4) 点完后请通知那10位小朋友他被点到了。
被点到的:
1.mun yee
2. yoko
3. edwin
4. jan bong
5.eleena
6. wei see
7. wei teng
8.jie yu
9..yii ann
10.kit yeng


01-[ 4号认识6号吗? ]: no

02-[ 10号是男还是女? ]: female

03-[ 8号的兴趣是? ]: on9..?? sms..??read..??(sry er)

04- [ 1号有没有兄弟姐妹? ]: yes

05-[ 7号姓氏? ]: siew

06-[ 10号人缘好吗? ]: of course *yes

07-[ 4号有人追吗? ]: i don't know.. no gua s he dn tell me

08-[ 承上2号呢? ]:

09-[ 6号喜欢的颜色是? ]: nt sure le.. (sry jie~)

10-[ 3号和10号是朋友吗? ]: consider yes

11-[ 8号的生日是? ]: 21/4

12-[ 5号读哪呢? ]: amc

13-[ 你怎么认识10号的? ]: tuition

14-[ 你跟1号的生日差几个月? ]: 1 mth n 18 days

15-[ 你和9号有出去玩过吗? ]: no er.. lz time ko her hang out bt she's nt free..t.t..
gud luck party count anot??haha

16-[ 你喜欢和2号聊天吗? ]: yes

17-[ 你喜欢和3号在一起吗? ]: yes.. gt high with him 2gtr^^

18-[ 你觉得7号人怎么样? ]:silly

19-[ 你觉得9号人怎么样? ]: caring

20-[ 你爱5号吗? ]: of course la.. my dear wo~~


1. 是谁传給你这份问卷的: my soh mui^^

2. 你们认识多久呢: fren jo almost 1 year

3. 你觉得他(她)对你來说很重要吗: very important!!

4. 你与他(她)的关系是: sister(not real de)

5.你覺得他(她）的個性如何: silly

6. 请问他(她)的兴趣是: on9 n sms gua~ chit-chating

CrY aGaIn =[

it is midnight now
i planned to sleep earlier today
because i am so tired
but somebody mentioned something
and we argued again
i am having gastric since the moment we start to argue
i told YOU but YOU ignored it
YOU just continue to express your feelings
and say whatever YOU want to say
i am now already not gastric
is 'wei Chou jin'
i try to call YOU to stop but YOU don't mind
don't YOU know that gastric will really manage to kill a person??
YOU might don't know the suffer feelings
because YOU didn't experience such a serious pain before
i did gastric till faint before...did YOU?? no~
now.. i rather i pain till faint , unconscious
also don't want to pain till can't breathe like now
once i faint , at least i no need to explain anything to YOU
at least i won't feel the pain
and i no need to stand for the pain to reply YOU
once i am emotional like now since i am crying
it will become more pain due to 'ji dong'
but i just can't stop crying
i believed YOU remember what i said before
if YOU make me cry non-stop for YOU again
there'll be our ending cause i can't stand for it anymore
YOU don't care about it.. why??!!
YOU forget it?? or YOU just think that i was just joking with YOU??
i was not joking when i said so
i was not cause of anger so i said so
I AM NOT.. SO PLEASE DO TAKE SERIOUS OF IT~
but it is too late.. because YOU did it again
i need some time.. to think about the problem
and find a solution for a better us in the future
the future which won't suffer for us like right now~~

accurate!! my characteristics~~

read this n u'll understand me more~~
it was the i answer i get from a test :

性格基因你是個自我壓抑的人，對於事情的看法比較悲觀，雖然害怕挫折和痛苦，面對變局時，仍能冷靜以對，這是你最與眾不同之處。你的成長過程並不如外界或自己期待的順利，感情的路走來也不算順遂。身心的負面經驗，讓你自小就比一般人來得早熟，對於死亡與性的感受深刻，一生似乎都在這兩個議題中打轉。對於自我要求相當嚴格的你，全身上下總是上緊發條，很難完全放鬆。你要小心自己有自殘或是習慣自舔傷口的傾向。對於喜歡的事物，可以一頭栽進去而無法自拔，對於不感興趣 的事物，則是碰都不想碰，對於人你也是如此。

生命路線你是一個意志力很強、幹練、早熟，但不怎麼快樂的人，不管年紀多大，總是給人一種老成的感覺。如何變得更豁達、真正快樂的善待自己，是你必須致力的課題。你性格的矛盾和痛苦點，經常透過感情和與家人的互動展現出來。經常為他人犧牲，但末了又會心不甘情不願，這樣的人生是浪費能量且毫無意義的。對於酒精、咖啡因、尼古丁和藥物的攝取量要節制，否則會受制於這些有害物質。性的壓抑會衍生成對很多事物的不滿。學會用「減法」過日子，才能真正領悟有「捨」才有「得」的道理。

my test~ accurate..??

i played a test in facebook just now~

title:只有十條題目，就測到你對你既男朋友有幾認真!

my result was:

Ａ型：你對你的男朋友有８０％認真

你是個很有愛心的人，無論是什麼都會很愛護的。

但你也是個很怕事的人，做住何事都不太相信自己我直覺，

但你對自己我眼光就很信任，因此你對你的另一半都很信賴，

你不能太過信賴他，否則會有很多事情都會給其他人知道。

由於你過份相信自己的眼光，也會經常戀上另一個，

這點要小心啊！不要太花心。

did it accurate??

i also don't know

some are some aren't

how should i treat you??

i saw something when i viewed some one's blog
although she didn't mention much about it
but actually i already known what was she saying about
i didn't ask her.. cause i was so speechless
i didn't even know how should i face her
can i treat her as usual?? i don't know
she is my good friend.. i don't wish to lose her
but in fact , she did something sorry to me
but she didn't know it.. she didn't know the truth
cause i promised not to tell anybody about it
i knew i shouldn't blame her.. but......
but what can i do?? as i was the 1 who got hurt too
i feel sorry to you too.. i know.....
you'll get hurt too if you know the truth
that's not what i hope.. i can't control it
can we just as close as who we were in the previous time??
it is going to school reopen..we will surely always meet
haiz~~ sorry.. i admit that i treat you cool now
i can't give any response with what you said
give me some more time. i might be fine
we are frenz 4eva!!

to my soh mui~~

i read my soh mui's blog
she doesn't want to let me see it d
but today she invites me
i feel so happy
just like she already fully accept me
and willing to tell me everything about her
i have heart feelings when i am reading it
she is not as cheerful as i think
because obviously....
her parents love her sister more
actually i already know this earlier
but i don't speak out
need not to be so sad about it

soh mui , you still got me
i will be your djj forever
will not leave you d
you have to be tough
don't be silly
you and your sister are different in my heart
both of you playing the different character
please don;t compare with her
and don't suspect your position in my heart
you are mt little mui

i swear...
from now onwards , i got to protect you well
won't let you get hurt anymore
whenever you are trouble
just speak it out to me
anytime....
i will be ready for you!!

boring~~

having hari raya holidays~~
everyone is happy
because can use this time to study for the coming exams
but i don't cause i am so lazy
and really feel very boring in this holidays
i can't hang out to anywhere.. haiz~~
i am gonna crazy to be stayed at home all the times
actually i got many things to do
do the NA board , tuition homework , school works
my koko things , do revision , etc
but i don't have the feel to do it
i less sms this few days
i don't find anyone unless they find me first
i don't know why
but i will still sms you everyday
my first message after i wake up is always to YOU
because you are really important in my heart
i miss you but can't meet you
but seem we have no topic to chat about
why so weird d?? can't find any answer
i want school re-open!!
but don't want exam.. scare