包袱

总觉得自己把全家给拖累了
我的出现
夺走了姐姐所有的爱
如果不是我
哥跟姐就不用为了供我读书而到外地做工
姐姐身为最小的，也会得到多点疼爱，她也会有个快乐的童年
爸妈也不用待在怡保
那时大家都不用挨着相思之痛
可以全家人搬到新加坡／一起待在怡保团圆
如果我没有出世
那大家就会少了一个很大的负担
那为什么我还是要来到这个世界呢？
我讨厌孤独地待在家
我很想念小时候被哥哥姐姐骂我烦的日子
想念他们陪我幼稚的时候
想念他们在怡保的时刻
哥…姐…爸…妈…
对不起~
是我连累了你们
破坏了你们无忧无虑的生活
我没用

一封写出心声的信~

我第一次为了看信而哭
哭到没有声音
甚至不能呼吸
那是一封真情流露的信
写出了一个为了家而到外国做工的女孩对家的思念与期望
也写出了她对她生活的一切感受
她从不回想童年回忆
因为她觉得很孤独
家里与学校都无人疼爱她
她妹妹的诞生
使她连那少少的爱都被夺走了
但她从来没有讨厌过她妹妹
反而最疼的是她
因为她想她妹妹活得比她更快乐
她把所有希望与幸福都投射在她妹妹身上
她付出最多；得最少
最终她找到了在她生命中最疼她的人-她的丈夫
她很感谢妹妹对她的支持
姐~谢谢您！
谢谢您对我的疼爱与对这个家所付出的一切！

a memorable camp^^

i went for amc st. john annual training camp
i was 1 of the camp committee
as a security , i had less time to sleep
i did regret for it before
but i knew i was wrong
because when sharing
my junior thanked me for it
at least i knew i has done something for camp
when we were in camp
i hoped to return home faster
just because i missed my bed much

the sharing part.....
i cried seriously
to see what they wrote on my paper
and it was the last day we overnight at school
i felt like......
i didn't wanna return home
i missed camp so much
we put so much effort in it
but it just last for three days

the last day~~
we did well in the closing
there's tears around everywhere
but it not because of blaming and sadness
it was because the sense of appreciation

my parents came
but i didn't want to go back
i hug my dear friends n cried
when i returned home
i did really missed camp much

i love this year camp
i love amc st. john
n i love all of u
truly n deeply from my heart

i learned many things in this camp
benefit lots
i had grown to become more mature
i truly wanna thanks all the camp committee
surely for the guideness
from mr. lai , pn. tan , sir kevin n ex-seniors too
i sweared to myself
i would never regret to be a part of this society

my recent life

i am always having emotional recently
i am not as patient as last time anymore
i always get angry easily
don't know why
sigh~~ i felt sorry to everyone around me
i didn't scold them
but i always in a unhappy mood
i knew i made many of u worry
but please believe me~~
i am ok and will be alright soon
here , i wish to thanks my jie n mui
*my mbb jie n my mdd soh mui
because they do give me a lot of advises
and of course supports too

there's really many problems appeared in my life
my family n friends as well
i didn't know what should i do
i felt fed up.. really
i couldn't survive in such a suffer life
i couldn't sleep well every night
i really don't know how to solve the problems between us
i did really feel tired
but i had never give up to think solutions

2010 is coming soon
should i be happy??
for me.....
2009 is a trouble year for me
many things happened around me
which i never expected n shocked me
ans because of all these
i did change a lot
i became more tough n cool
but it might not a good change??
i am wondering~~ however....
there's many more problems which i had not solved yet
will all these be alright in a new year??
i don't know~~
i hope i can lead a happier life in a new year
i don't want as suffer as this year anymore
god bless me~~

最特别的你~~

11/12
整整一天了…
我的收件箱里…
毫无你留下信息的痕迹…
怎么了？又出现什么问题了吗？
我又开始担心了…
而我的心情…
也不知觉地变得低落了许多…
脸上的笑容自然地消失了~
你是否知道…
在没有与你联络的时刻里…
哪怕只有那么区区的一天…
也足以让我的心跳停止~
我对你的爱…
已被隐藏在我心灵的最深处…
如果我不说出口…
你是否能感觉得到呢？
不管我们的将来如何…
我真的很想永远待在你身边…
好好地守护你，不让你收到任何伤害…
我能这么幸运…
去拥有这个机会…
成为你的永恒伴侣吗？
但愿我能^^

为何一切都变了？

从新加坡回来已有一段时间了…
但从我踏进怡保的第一步开始,
就好像注定了我要面对很多问题~
我觉得…身边一切都变了
你对我冷淡了…
她变得恐怖了
他不再这么主动找我了
这一切都令我对周围的环境有了极大的恐惧感
我开始不会分辨身边的人…
到底谁是真心;
谁是假意了
绝望的我真的厌倦了自己的生活…
我真的觉得很累了…
也快要撑不下去了…
难道我只想回来后，能过一些平静的生活…这样也有错吗？
如果知道回来会让我这么烦恼…
我真的宁愿躲在那儿一辈子都不回来…
*当事情无法如愿地解决时，逃避未必不是一个好方法~~

你在耍我么？背叛我了吗？

5/12~
从朋友口中得到了一个很惊讶的消息…
对我来说，它是一个很坏的消息…
因为…我信任的你…背叛我了~
我是否应该相信这一切呢？
但事实摆在眼前
我也无法再逃避了…
她们没有欺骗我的必要…
还是有什么误会了？
因为你对我所做过的一切…
并不让我觉得那是假的…
我们的友谊会这样就结束吗？
我不晓得…
只知道自己已经对你绝望了…
而我们以后…
应该也只可以做两位很普通的朋友…
因为我对我们的友谊没有信心了
而我…也不敢再轻易地相信你了…
对不起~
也许…这就是我们的终点了
一切都回到我们刚认识的时候了~

the LAST day

today is the last day i stay at s'pore
but the stupid me choose not to go anywhere
am i stupid n silly??
but i respect my decision
because i really very tired to walk here walk there
i rather stay at home to online
chat with mt buddies
download songs n all those
although i can do this at ipoh
but don't know y
i just wish to stay at home today

at the beginning , i wish to return ipoh faster
because i really miss my soh mui , mui , frens , dears much
but now?? ya.. i miss them too..
but i don't wish to back
once i return ipoh , i need to face many people n many things
still got some problem not being solved yet
at here , i can avoid all these
i can go out by myself to any shopping center when i m boring
i can eat anything since nobody here know i got gastric
so they won't control me
n i like the weather here , windy always
i like the people here , polite n honest

but however , i know
i can't avoid those people n problem forever
i still have to return ipoh to solve it
because ipoh is my hometown
my house is there , n my family too
my school n my friend also
i know i can't leave ipoh at this moment
i feel sorry to my st john committee
especially wei see
because i asked her to tell me everything
n every news about sjam amc when i at s'pore
n she need to solve everything about security n coordinator
she as my partner... really pity her le..haiz~~
n kit yeng too....(my lao gong..haha)
because i asked her to pass things to jia min
sorry thank you so much my buddies!!
see u all soon^^

the ONLY n SPECIAL day^^

today is the only day i alone with Eleena at s'pore
so it considered as a very special day for me
we went for breakfast together
then went to Bugis
she suggested that we went to LAVENDER
the name is nice
we thought there's sure much beautiful scenery
who knows..... there's neither shopping centre
fine.. but there's nothing to go at all!
like a jungle without anything
not suit the name at all
wuwuwu
we sat at the bus station to rest
something more terrible happened
an old man was looking at us
with a very weird eye sights!! OMG
very 'bian tai' a
he came closer n closer
luckily finally he went off
huh~~ relax.. left that place fast!!
we saw a woman talked to herself at the MRT station
what day is today?? we saw so many such kind of people
when i was waiting MRT
i saw a VERY VERY VERY perasan girl
not a young girl but not old too
she stood in front at the MRT door
she turned hare turned there
just to look the back of her dress
i felt wanna vomit when i saw that
so i changed my direction
who knows she walked in front of me n did the same thing
wuwuw~~story had not end yet
again.. an Indian man looked very normal when i board the MRT
but don't know why
he suddenly mentioned some places name
it was the place that MRT arrived
at every station , he did the same thing
OMG~~ we really TBT him la
n i did laugh
because thought that today i was so 'lucky'

i m just a *BALL*

my digi sim card was being locked
due to my careless
my sister scolded me
i admitted that's my fault
but she even said i was blocking her mirror
OMG~~ do u know how hurt was i??
i dropped my tears silently
i didn't know whether they see it
but i didn't care
because i try hard to control
and stop my tears
but i just couldn't do it
i was very unhappy n moody
why m i seem just like a ball??
a ball being kicked to anywhere when they don't want me
there's none a place for me to stay well
haiz.. so much i wished to return ipoh

*thanks for those friends who sms me n support me
although it was very expensive to sms me*

S'PORE!!

LONG TIME DIDN'T VISIT TO S'PORE ALREADY
IT SEEMED HAD SO MUCH CHANGES
BUT I REALLY LIKE THE SCENERY HERE
IT'S VERY CLEAN
AND NICE DECORATED
SO MANY HIGH BUILDINGS HERE
IT IS DIFFERENT FROM MY HOMETOWN
HERE IS A BUSINESS CENTRE
ALL PEOPLE ARE BUSY
BUT THEY HAD MUCH FREEDOM
ALL THE CHILDREN GO EVERYWHERE BY THEIR OWN

I WENT TO VIVO CITY
I SAW THE JETTY
THE SEA IS VERY NICE
I FELT VERY RELAX THERE
BUT DON'T KNOW WHY
I WAS MISSING SOMEBODY THAT TIME
FEELING ALONE THAT TIME
MY SISTER WITH HUSBAND
AUNT WITH SON
I WAS THE ONLY 1 WHO ALONE THERE

BUT HOWEVER , I ENJOYED MYSELF HERE
BUT I GOT LOST THAT DAY!!
WUWU.. BUT NOT REALLY LA
JUST WENT TO WRONG STATION
BUT I WAS VERY CLEVER
WALKED BACK BY MY OWN
AND I FOUND MY HOUSE
WAKAKA~~

I WENT TO PLAY BOWLING TODAY
I SCORED THE HIGHEST MARKS!!
STRIKE FOR 4 TIMES!!
MUAHAHA~~
THE HAPPIEST THING IN THIS TRIP--
MY UNCLE BOUGHT ME A NEW HAND PHONE
MY DREAM HAND PHONE-- W595i
THE PERSON ENCOURAGED ME TO BUY SAMSUNG STAR
BUT I DON'T WANT
BECAUSE TOUCH SCREEN IS NOT SUITABLE FOR ME
BECAUSE I LIKE TO SMS!!
HAHA~~

BUT I STILL HOPE TO RETURN IPOH AS SOON AS POSSIBLE
BECAUSE I REALLY MISS MY DEAR MUCH
N I MISS MY MUIS TOO
I KNOW THEY MISS ME ALSO
N I HOPE TO TAKE CARE OF THEM^^

SAD TOO.. BECAUSE I M GETTING FATTER N FATTER
THE FOOD HERE IS TOO NICE
AND I ATE VERY MUCH
MY SISTER BROUGHT ME TO THOSE EXPENSIVE RESTAURANT
AND BOUGHT ME MANY THINGS
I SPENT MUCH MONEY HERE
FELEL SO SORRY TO MY SISTER N UNCLE
BECAUSE THEY ARE MY 'ATM CARD' HERE
T.T
SORRY N THANKS!!

can i share it with any1??

i knew something one day
i met a very suffer family problem
i felt very stress
i really didn't know what can i do
can i share it with anyone??
NO.. I FELT SHAME..
can anyone help me??
I THINK NO TOO
it gonna affect my normal life
it had passed 1 week
but the problem seemed not solve yet
and it seemed getting serious n serious
i felt panic
but i need to stand for it
to support my whole family
but can i really do that well??
it is a big burden for me
i don't know whether i can handle it
but i got ton try my best
haiz~~

what can i do for YOU??

u were very moody
but u didn't wish to tell me anything about it
haiz~~ i worried u very much
but i seemed couldn't do anything for u
u were always support me whenever i need u
but me?? haiz~~ sorry for my useless
i really wished to do something to help u
but what could i do except show my support through message?
haix~ y do u want to keep it in your heart le??
u don't trust me??
or it related to me so u can't tell??
it'll hurt me like last time??
i really wish u can speak it out
at least u can release burden in your heart
i just wish to be your loyal listener
share all your problems
can u please give me that chance??

just want to be MYSELF

i became cool again

all my st john buddies realised it

i was speechless in my class

i admitted it

i didn't feel like want to say anything

n i really felt very very tired

so wished to lie onto the bed in the class

so many seniors returned to school for the camp

huh~~ i was having stomachache

not feeling well .. really bad luck

my mood turned down when i returned home

all of u wished me to become the previous lnj

wished me not to be that cool n speechless

just wished me to change for all of u

to prevent hurting all of u

then did all of u think about me??

all of u lied me , betrayed me , hurt me

but i chose to forgive all of u again n again

all of u are the 1 made me felt tired with my life

made me hate my life n became speechless

then now all of u came to blame me

and wanted me change back to the previous me??

all of u were so cruel to me!!

do i wrong if i just wish to live with my own way??

the way which make me comfort and relax

y every time also i change for u all

but not u all change for me??

but then y do u all want control me n stop me from that??

can't u all respect me??

can't just accept my changes??

y can't i just became a little bit selfish

and live for myself??!!

y i need cared for u all so much

and ignored my own feelings??

do u know... whenever i wish to avoid u

but i still want to pretend friend with u

care u n treat u good

just don't want to hurt u or make u think to much

when i m unhappy or tired

i still need to be happy in my message

just because don't want to make u worry

or let u think that i treat u cool

how suffer for me to do all these for u all??

i really felt very stress today

i cried secretly in my room

haix~~such a stupid lnj

71th anniversary

10/11/09
there was a 71th anniversary celebration of our school
i decided not going to it
but i promised to support my soh mui
n i need went there for duty
i was not in mood that day
seemed many things happened
and i did get much bad news
what i knew was...
i was sooooo sleepy that night
someone was cheating me
i felt disappointed n wished to cry
i trusted as my best friend but she...??!!
eleena worried me n hug me as her support to me
i cried when i heard the song 'ting hai' by liew wai yee
my friend knew it n came to find me
she asked me what happened n cared for me
thanks her so much!!
i felt touched n happy with what she did
n i realised she looked very nice in her clothes
haha~~ she appeared many times
n did shock me very much
but also excited
however , i asked her to leave
because i was very emotional that time
kept on shouting n got high
she kept on looking at me
i knew she was worrying
because it was the 1st time she saw such a crazy me
they were so yeng when playing the drum!!
i was so regret that i didn't take part
i saw her many timed after the programme end
u walked towards me to care me
thank you very much~~
really my good good good dear friend^^
thanks everything u did to me that day
as i knew , cause of me , u make them angry u
sorry~~

it was raining
i walked to hill top with friends
we just alike crazy girls in the rain
our body wet , feeling so cold
haha~~

生存之道

你笑过你知道它的奇妙
它让快乐也住进你的心跳你会感觉这世界多么美好
就算以后的事情都没有预兆...

你哭过你知道眼泪的味道
一旦碰到了脸颊它就不能停止胡闹
任由伤悲在你的世界里乱蹦乱跳
就算心愿付出每一分.每一秒.你都不曾想逃

诺言不过是一种谎言
美丽的欺骗
让人甘心为了它放弃一切
其实你我都清楚明白
承诺是一张白纸
再厚的剧本也有了结局
也许无言才是最好的安慰...

傻瓜都一样
都逃不过悲伤
所以当你觉得自己应该坚强的时候
就要把眼泪收起来...

remaining the SAME

suffering~
i tried my best to advise myself
to become the previous lnj
the lnj who care people much
i don want to be as cool as now
because i know it hurt many people
but do u all know??
i am the 1 who feeling hurt if i become the previous me??
i don know how to face someone
but i still have to treat her as good as usual
m i acting or i really put down the problem between us??
i don't know
it is a burden for me
but i know
she felt happy that i treat her like what i did last time
she's enjoying it
that's what i want
i just hope everyone around me is happy
no matter how much i need to force myself
push myself hard not to be cool

a trouble trip

my sister called me just now
she told me that my brother just return ipoh after 10th December
wth!!! that meant i can't follow his car
and need to return ipoh by bus by myself??
i have few more choice
follow my aunt and friend back on 2nd of December
or follow my grandfather on 30th November
or my uncle on 10th December
but the 1st 2 are too early for me as i wish to go for 2 weeks
the last 1 is too late for me because camp committee meeting on 8th
how should i choose??
back by my own is the perfect choice but seem dangerous
OH GOSH!! I DON WANT GO ALREADY LA!!
MA FAN!! haiz~~
help!! who can help me???!!

~have FUN~

3/11 ~ i went parade with eleena , claudia . khar mun n chin mun
~ we had lunch together at MP

~ then went to kbox ^^

ALL things went WRONG

30/9/09

i got my last exam paper today

i got shocked when i got it

really very very shocked

but it was not a good result

i was the highest in class before

my marks dropped very very much

i totally could not accept it

because many of them better than me

i wished to cry but i didn't

my mind and heart were empty

i shouted during the retirement assembly

but it didn't work for me

i returned home and wished to online

just want to express my feelings

but even the hand phone also bully me

i was in anger and wished to throw it away

but i was self-controlling

the rice was so hard to eat

it was not same with the usual and not nice

my dad bought peanut soup from pasar malam

but i couldn't eat it due to sore throat

and someone sms me to tell me something

because got a person dissatisfy with me

haiz~~ well , i knew what should i do

all minor things add together

were enough to make me fed up

tired today.. very very tired with my life..

i didn't have the chance

29/10/09
chose camp committee today
many of us aimed to be instructor
but the chances are limited
there are many people have the potential
i expected i wouldn't be chosen
finally , the result came out
those who being chosen were
lcy , swt , wsh , cxw , wwn , jl , njq
i had no response when i saw the list
i already expected it??
or i just didn't know how to describe my feelings??
but i know... they are better than me
i could not do anything to change their decision
i was disqualified
so what i could do was... just to accept it
i thought i was really that tough enough
when i returned home
i felt disappointed
not to anyone but just myself
i participated camp for 4 years
last year... i got chance to be assistant leader
but finally i just be a QM
i was still OK with it as i thought i could be an instructor this year
but i knew it was just my day dreaming
it was not my turn yet
i was sure next year those who being chosen
will take part in the camp also
so..........i would not get any chance to be instructor
OMG.. the pose i got in camp was just a QM in 5 years??!!
and it was the only time and only year..
am i very useless??

变化

.曾经有人说过...
有我出现的地方...
就有一道强烈的光茫与一股傲气跟随着我...
因为我的样子总是酷酷的...不爱笑...
而我的长发也常在风吹中特出了我的熬气...
那就是我的特色...
但这也同时吸引了不少人的注意力...
甚至有数人崇拜我呢...
我不晓得那是否是个事实...
如果是,我也不知道那是好是坏...
但不知从何时开始,我发现自己的光茫逐渐减少了...
是我变低调了...还是自已的能力已不如当初了呢?
我也不清楚...
我在尽量把自已的光茫减少...
只因我想过回一个平凡女生的生活~

the 1st memory with my dear *eleena*

23/8- last day exam

after school

something mad happen

so i went parade with eleena

we took picture in fitting room

haha!! self-loving us

my new hair style^^

haha.. how do i look in this new hair style??

~getting far apart~

recently i felt i lost a lot of friends
my best friend less reply my message
but i never blame him
as his friend , i should understand him
and forgive him for that

my soh mui became the previous me
she is so cool to me now
less reply my message
maybe she is just busy enjoying her life

*i may think too much in the 2 cases above
but also feel worry and sad
i don't hope to lose two friends who und me much
but i really feel our friendship has far apart
although i know they never forget about me

someone said i treat her very cool recently
ya.. many friends said i looked cool at school
i admitted it
but in fact , i just treat few friends cool
some cause no topic cause less chance to meet
but...... 1 is i don't know how to face her
every time she walks towards me
i will try to escape , leave asap
i don't know whether i am right
she is my good friend
i think even her own self also don't know
what is the problem between us
by the way , i feel sorry to her
but i really can''t take her as friend like last time
she made me got hurt but she don't know
or maybe she knows but purposely do so??
haiz~~ i really don't know
dare not to guess it also
just hope to know the truth
but who can tell me?? neither of you
will i just lose 1 good friend like that??
i really don't know.. hope won't~~

it was OVER..... or not??

2 weeks exam

it made me felt very tired and upset

i dare not to take the results next week

i knew it will be very bad

i didn't do my revision well

due to many reasons

whenever i wanted to do the revision

something happened and troubled me

it affected my mood to read

they were SUCKS for me

it would be my worst results

in year 2009

haiz~~

however , it finally gone to the end

no matter how is it

i have to be ready to accept it

huh~~

exam was over

does it mean that all those problems over too??

definitely they are still confusing me

i got tired from that

just wish to stop everything in my life

don't want to bother anything anymore

but i know i can't

that's my style

to pick all the burdens on my own shoulders

how long i am going to suffer more??

it is infinity

am i CHANGED??

Su ann asked me something today:
"jie , why you looked so cool today?"
Wei teng asked me something too:
"qin.. why are you treating me so weird recently?"
'how do i treat you?? any difference??'
"yes.. lack of the warmness (re qing) from you.'
'what had i done and make you feel so??'
"you act cool and i hardly see you smile.."


i didn't explain anything to her
just gave the reason that i was having p pain
am i really changed to be a cooler person??
why will i become like that??
or just treat some of them like that??
no.. as what she said
i seemed knew so many things happened recently
i felt tired with all those things
and started to be speechless
sorry everyone.. i couldn't have a hearty smile now
not much people know that i am just pretending
those who know it really understand me much
i don't wish to change and hurt anyone
sorry to all my dears~~

something from her~~

when i reached school

jessmin showed me something

i saw many 'sorry' wrote on the whiteboard

it was to me but i didn't know what happened

i looked down to the right corner

chai yan's name was there

she said sorry to me?? 270 words of sorry

why? what happened?? she looked at me

after she finished talking to mr lai

she came towards me and passed me a letter

i had a look on it

she said she knew what had she said and hurt me

she was not purposely to do it

she told me that her mood was very bad yesterday

she never mind with what people said about her

she won't even mind if got anyone hate her

but after argued with me , she got very moody

she didn't like the feel of arguing with me

argue with me and others are not the same??

but she doesn't even want to argue with others

cause she doesn't feel want to bother what they say

chai yan lao gong..

i didn't aim to argue with you

just my mood not good yesterday

and really angry with what you said

sorry~~ hope our friendship will remain the same^^

durin the meeting...

she played my hair..shocked me

she was the only 1 who realised that i was not well

and cared for me.. hehe.. thx~~

-it is SUCKS-

THERE'S A MEETING FOR ALL CAMP OC TODAY
I WENT TO SCHOOL WISH A SLEEPY CONDITION
OH DAMN~~ I WAS HAVING A SERIOUSLY P PAIN!!
WHEN I RETURNED HOME , THERE WAS NOBODY
I FELT SO DISAPPOINTED BECAUSE I NEED THEM MUCH
I WENT FOR BATHE.. IT GETTING MORE SERIOUS
I SMS HIM.. BUT HE WAS NOT THAT SUPPORT ME
I THOUGHT WE ARGUED AGAIN.. HAIZ~~
WHEN MY MUM RETURNED HOME
I ASKED HER WHETHER SHE WOULD COOK
SHE DIDN'T GIVE ME A GOOD ANSWER
STILL BLAMED THAT I BATHED SLOW
OMG.. DON'T SHE KNOW THAT I CAN'T GET HUNGRY??
I WOULD GET GASTRIC.. WUWU~ PITY ME
HAIZ~~ NOBODY REALISED WHY WAS I LYING ON THE SOFA
HUGGING MY PILLOW AND SAT A SIDE
NOBODY ASKED ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED TO ME
WHY SEEMED NOBODY CARE ME ON THIS WORLD??
AM I REALLY THAT NO WORTH TO BEING CARED??
TEARS DRIPPING DOWN FROM MY EYES
I HATE MY LIFE. HATE MY LONELY LIFE..
HATE MY HOME.. IT HAD CHANGED
LAST TIME THAT HOME SWEET HOME HAD LOST
I COULDN'T FIND IT BACK ANYMORE
IT DOESN'T BELONG TO ME NOW
I FED UP.. I WISHED TO RUN AWAY FROM THIS HOME
AS FAR AS I COULD.. IT IS JUST A COLD FEELING HERE
THAT'S WHY I RATHER ALWAYS STAY AT SCHOOL
AT LEAST I CAN CHAT WITH MY FRIENDS
I FIND THAT EVEN ST JOHN IS A WARMER 'HOME' FOR ME
EVERYBODY CARES ME IN THIS SOCIETY
I LOVE EVERYONE THERE MUCH
ESPECIALLY THE F4 COMMITTEE
MY BIG FAMILY THERE.. MY LGs , LP , LUIs N MUIs

fate??

i went for my dinner just now

just at a shop near my house

i sms on the way to there

i got shock when i reached

i saw a boy was typing message

ya.. that's him - wai loon

he looked up at me

both of us got shocked

and laughed secretly

our parents didn't know

we didn't tell each other

that we'll be there at all

but we met there

haha.. is this called fate?

should i be happy of it??

both of us sat so near

but just can keep on sms-ing

don't even say hi to each other

haiz~~ pity-nya.. t.t

tagged

被点到必填，
不填代表你不尊重传给你的人和问卷。

(1) 请老实的回答每一个问题。
(2) 不行擅自塗改題目。
(3) 写完请点10位小朋友，不可不点。
(4) 点完后请通知那10位小朋友他被点到了。
被点到的:
1.mun yee
2. yoko
3. edwin
4. jan bong
5.eleena
6. wei see
7. wei teng
8.jie yu
9..yii ann
10.kit yeng


01-[ 4号认识6号吗? ]: no

02-[ 10号是男还是女? ]: female

03-[ 8号的兴趣是? ]: on9..?? sms..??read..??(sry er)

04- [ 1号有没有兄弟姐妹? ]: yes

05-[ 7号姓氏? ]: siew

06-[ 10号人缘好吗? ]: of course *yes

07-[ 4号有人追吗? ]: i don't know.. no gua s he dn tell me

08-[ 承上2号呢? ]:

09-[ 6号喜欢的颜色是? ]: nt sure le.. (sry jie~)

10-[ 3号和10号是朋友吗? ]: consider yes

11-[ 8号的生日是? ]: 21/4

12-[ 5号读哪呢? ]: amc

13-[ 你怎么认识10号的? ]: tuition

14-[ 你跟1号的生日差几个月? ]: 1 mth n 18 days

15-[ 你和9号有出去玩过吗? ]: no er.. lz time ko her hang out bt she's nt free..t.t..
gud luck party count anot??haha

16-[ 你喜欢和2号聊天吗? ]: yes

17-[ 你喜欢和3号在一起吗? ]: yes.. gt high with him 2gtr^^

18-[ 你觉得7号人怎么样? ]:silly

19-[ 你觉得9号人怎么样? ]: caring

20-[ 你爱5号吗? ]: of course la.. my dear wo~~


1. 是谁传給你这份问卷的: my soh mui^^

2. 你们认识多久呢: fren jo almost 1 year

3. 你觉得他(她)对你來说很重要吗: very important!!

4. 你与他(她)的关系是: sister(not real de)

5.你覺得他(她）的個性如何: silly

6. 请问他(她)的兴趣是: on9 n sms gua~ chit-chating

CrY aGaIn =[

it is midnight now
i planned to sleep earlier today
because i am so tired
but somebody mentioned something
and we argued again
i am having gastric since the moment we start to argue
i told YOU but YOU ignored it
YOU just continue to express your feelings
and say whatever YOU want to say
i am now already not gastric
is 'wei Chou jin'
i try to call YOU to stop but YOU don't mind
don't YOU know that gastric will really manage to kill a person??
YOU might don't know the suffer feelings
because YOU didn't experience such a serious pain before
i did gastric till faint before...did YOU?? no~
now.. i rather i pain till faint , unconscious
also don't want to pain till can't breathe like now
once i faint , at least i no need to explain anything to YOU
at least i won't feel the pain
and i no need to stand for the pain to reply YOU
once i am emotional like now since i am crying
it will become more pain due to 'ji dong'
but i just can't stop crying
i believed YOU remember what i said before
if YOU make me cry non-stop for YOU again
there'll be our ending cause i can't stand for it anymore
YOU don't care about it.. why??!!
YOU forget it?? or YOU just think that i was just joking with YOU??
i was not joking when i said so
i was not cause of anger so i said so
I AM NOT.. SO PLEASE DO TAKE SERIOUS OF IT~
but it is too late.. because YOU did it again
i need some time.. to think about the problem
and find a solution for a better us in the future
the future which won't suffer for us like right now~~

accurate!! my characteristics~~

read this n u'll understand me more~~
it was the i answer i get from a test :

性格基因你是個自我壓抑的人，對於事情的看法比較悲觀，雖然害怕挫折和痛苦，面對變局時，仍能冷靜以對，這是你最與眾不同之處。你的成長過程並不如外界或自己期待的順利，感情的路走來也不算順遂。身心的負面經驗，讓你自小就比一般人來得早熟，對於死亡與性的感受深刻，一生似乎都在這兩個議題中打轉。對於自我要求相當嚴格的你，全身上下總是上緊發條，很難完全放鬆。你要小心自己有自殘或是習慣自舔傷口的傾向。對於喜歡的事物，可以一頭栽進去而無法自拔，對於不感興趣 的事物，則是碰都不想碰，對於人你也是如此。

生命路線你是一個意志力很強、幹練、早熟，但不怎麼快樂的人，不管年紀多大，總是給人一種老成的感覺。如何變得更豁達、真正快樂的善待自己，是你必須致力的課題。你性格的矛盾和痛苦點，經常透過感情和與家人的互動展現出來。經常為他人犧牲，但末了又會心不甘情不願，這樣的人生是浪費能量且毫無意義的。對於酒精、咖啡因、尼古丁和藥物的攝取量要節制，否則會受制於這些有害物質。性的壓抑會衍生成對很多事物的不滿。學會用「減法」過日子，才能真正領悟有「捨」才有「得」的道理。

my test~ accurate..??

i played a test in facebook just now~

title:只有十條題目，就測到你對你既男朋友有幾認真!

my result was:

Ａ型：你對你的男朋友有８０％認真

你是個很有愛心的人，無論是什麼都會很愛護的。

但你也是個很怕事的人，做住何事都不太相信自己我直覺，

但你對自己我眼光就很信任，因此你對你的另一半都很信賴，

你不能太過信賴他，否則會有很多事情都會給其他人知道。

由於你過份相信自己的眼光，也會經常戀上另一個，

這點要小心啊！不要太花心。

did it accurate??

i also don't know

some are some aren't