remaining the SAME

suffering~
i tried my best to advise myself
to become the previous lnj
the lnj who care people much
i don want to be as cool as now
because i know it hurt many people
but do u all know??
i am the 1 who feeling hurt if i become the previous me??
i don know how to face someone
but i still have to treat her as good as usual
m i acting or i really put down the problem between us??
i don't know
it is a burden for me
but i know
she felt happy that i treat her like what i did last time
she's enjoying it
that's what i want
i just hope everyone around me is happy
no matter how much i need to force myself
push myself hard not to be cool