I AM LOOKING FORWARD FOR IT!!!

tomorrow , 19th of sept~~
will be st john f4 and f5 gathering
at breeze cafe from 7-10pm
hahahaha.. i am so excited for it
it is the first time go out with them o
i am going to sing a song for seniors
nervous about it
scare that i cannot sing well
and shame in front of them
i hope i won't
and i will try to do my best
and make all of them enjoy it also

however , i would like to apologise
wei teng and wei see~~
sorry for trouble you two on the songs
and thanks for co-operating with me
let us enjoy tomorrow!!!

你幸福吗?

从朋友变情人有个好处是...
两个人已经熟到某个程度...
所以可以省略初期交往时的尴尬期...

那如果从情人变朋友呢?
那会更珍贵...
因为彼此相爱过...失去过...
会更了解对方...更珍惜这得来不易的友情...
爱情里最残忍的滋味...
是我明明知道我爱你...
而我们却只是好朋友
友情里最自私的胆怯
是你明明知道你爱我
而你还假装只是朋友
幸福需要努力吗?
不努力怎么幸福
希望读过这偏部落格的朋友都会得到幸福...

its too late

i realised that you misunderstood something

you thought there's no place for the new Zealand camp

when did i say so?? you are wrong..

it means my friends are right

if i please you 1 more time

you will allow me to go

but i didn't..just wanna to respect you

but i was wrong.. totally wrong

i should not give up the chance

it was hurt when you told me..

'actually i allowed you to go

but i changed my mind due to H1N1'

then what for you told me about it??

you can just let me just forget about it

why you want to mention it again now??

its harm for me to know that you changed your mind again!!

why you want to give me chance

and push all my hopes at the same moment

can you make a good decision next time??

or can you don't tell me that you were giving chance to me

but now you got to change it??

you just let me give up lo

why do you want to be so cruel to me??

don't you understand me as my mum??

i know 31/8 was the closing date for registration

it was too late

so i planned to forget about it

since i know i would not have chance for it

but why you want to spoil my mood again and again??

i decided to sleep by 10.30 pm

but you called sister to pass a message to me

you said i can go to new Zealand if get the chance

chance?? will i get it?? definitely no!!

because you already rejected the chance that pn tan gave me!!

is you push away my chance but now you said allow me to go?!

it is sooooo " FUNNY " !!

i dropped my tears

i could not sleep

just because of the 1 sentence that you said

so can you please don't ever spoil my mood anymore??

especially when it is time for me to sleep

it is not easy for me to forget this incident

but i have ti force myself to do so

because i can't take you as my enemy

a special day

090909
it was a special day
it was my sister's birthday
but also a very IMPORTANT day for her
she went for R.O.M with her boyfriend
i mean my jie fu now--cagnet
my sis dyed her hair into blue
it was sooooo nice
i went my aunt saloon to set my hair
GOSH!!! the 1 in the mirror really is me??!!
i could not believe it
but i was not really satisfy with my make up

i accompany my sister to BRIDE WORLD
to set her hair and make up
WALAO!!! she is so pretty!!
she is the most special bride
because she is the most sexy
and having a simple but nice hair tying
our car was even the most expensive
and the biggest car
we went to the hall for R.O.M
my sister looked so profitable
i was very happy to see that
because she was having a hearty smile
i wished her in my heart--
jie , i hope you will be happy with cagnet forever

will i have that chance to have this day??
i don't know
will that be my right target??
everything was just a ? for me
will i be as lucky as my sister??
may god bless me

i went for my dinner at 10 something
i was so hungry
but it was worth for me
i followed my sister to SG8
a disco (the previous shutter 8)
i played till 3am
i did go disco before when i was 7 years old
but this would just be my 1st experience
as i did get high and enjoy it
i miss you so much
i hope i can have fun with you
will us get that chance??
i am looking forward for it

cagnet-- my new jie fu..
you don't bully my sister o
but i am sure that you won't

i learned new thing

hahaha.. i had sign up for facebook..

and started to play..

i don't know how to play friend for sale er..

stupid me.. so sad..

but never mind.. because I'll learn it!!

hahahaha.. i played 'restaurant city'..

although it got a bit childish..

but don't know why..

i enjoyed it immensely o..

i also could not believe that I'll play such game..

however , it quite nice o..

thanks wei see intro it to me!!

i played many testes in facebook..

here is one of the results :

你 容 易 被 愛 情 傷 得 很 重 ， 因 為 你 是 個 重 感 情 的 人 ， 總 是 將 全 部 的 心 思 放 在 對 方 身 上。 當 感 情 生 變 ， 你 馬 上 會 不 知 所 措 ， 頓 失 人 生 方 向 ， 這 樣 的 你 ， 失 戀 後 不 容 易 走 出他 的 陰 影 ， 不 但 會 為 情 所 困 ， 更 會 將 自 己 鎖 在 門 內 ， 即 使 出 了 門 也 盡 可 能 地 在 路 人甲 、 乙 、 丙 中 搜 尋 和 他 相 似 的 身 影 ， 故 你 要 療 傷 一 段 長 時 間 ， 才 能 慢 慢 復 原 。

for me , it was very accurate..

but..... haiz~~

there is nothing for me to be proud of..

i hate noise

i went for my dinner

he drank beer with friend

and started to talk nonsense

i didn't like want to answer him

i just kept silence

i enjoyed my tomyam fried rice

its nice and i love it

i wanna to return home

but she seemed want to wait him

i asked her when does she decide to leave

well , she didn't answer me

just kept silence

i hate it

are we going to wait until midnight???!!!

i was not as patient as her

i wanted to return home!!!!!

she just sitting there

didn't about what i did

i showed my impatient face

i threw my hand phone

i was in anger

i felt so sorry to my best friend

since he lent his ear to me

to hear my rude words

sorry EDWIN

i sms him

he knew i was not in mood again

he tried to make me happy

he muack me

whenever i am unhappy

i will think about him

i will happy with his reply

am i really so easy tam??

or i just easy tam by him?

why??

because his mouth is sweet??

because i love him??

haha.. maybe~~

well , i need to thank him for always being by my side

our problem

you said i love you less than the time before
you feel it?? do i?? i don't know
u worry that i will love other guy
you said you afraid of losing me
then why you want to make me tired again and again??
loves the heart that hurts you but never hurt the heart that loves you

you said sorry to me
i know you dropped your tears
if you think you have nothing wrong
why want to apologise to me??
if you really feel sorry
then why want to do it again and again??
you make me get hurt and tired to love you
you hurt me because i hurt you right??
that's your answer

whenever i feel tired and almost can't stand for it
you sure will treat me specially good
tell me you feel sorry and cry
my heart will be so pain when hear it
and i will definitely forgive everything that is harm to me
but once i decided to love you fully
you repeat it again and make me feel sad
then you realised and apologise
OM MY GOD
i really fed up
that's our main problem
can we solve it??
i don't think so
but once it be there , we will be suffer
what can i do for it??
i don't want to get tired for you anymore
but..............
OH DAMN
i don't have any idea now
my brain is sucked!!

what do i have??

a junior sms me
said she admire me
i know who is that
but just can't believe
i did admire 2 seniors before
but i don't expect it'll happen on me
i can't find anything for her to admire
she said i am leng lui , kind , etc
am i?? obviously no
i m already popular with my cool and fierce look
how come she said i don't fierce at all??
i am wondering
just because i borrowed her notes to copy before
walao
by the way , i thanks her very much for her admiration

i am so suffer~~

2/9
huh~~ it was the 1st day my 'best friend' come..
i was suffering from pain..
i missed you so so so much..
i wished to get support from you immediately..
but i know its impossible..
you were having exam far away..
no matter how was i suffering..
i still wished you in my heart:
"dear , you must add oil ya "
did you hear it??

3/9
i changed new timetable and have new teacher for my science (miss lee)..
she explained very well..
it was the first time i understood what teacher taught about science throughout this year..
because the previous teacher...........
OMG!!!
HER ENGLISH PRONUNCIATION WAS SOOOO BAD..
COULDN'T EVEN HEAR WHAT SHE SAID..
DIDN'T KNOW WHAT SHE TAUGHT ALSO..
PITY 4S1..
i feel glad and happy now to have miss lee as my teacher!!
wakakaka

you seemed no mood or angry..
why?? what happened to you??
i also didn't know what i can do for you..
u didn't reply me leh..
u don't want me le ma??
or just because of trial so you busy?
haix
worry again..

人

我最爱的人
不一定是最爱我的人
最爱我的人
不一定是我最爱的人
陪着我下半辈子的人
不一定是我最爱的人或最爱我的人
只是两个人在对的时见遇上了对方
而你...
又是我生命中的哪一个人呢?