fate??

i went for my dinner just now

just at a shop near my house

i sms on the way to there

i got shock when i reached

i saw a boy was typing message

ya.. that's him - wai loon

he looked up at me

both of us got shocked

and laughed secretly

our parents didn't know

we didn't tell each other

that we'll be there at all

but we met there

haha.. is this called fate?

should i be happy of it??

both of us sat so near

but just can keep on sms-ing

don't even say hi to each other

haiz~~ pity-nya.. t.t

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被点到必填，
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(1) 请老实的回答每一个问题。
(2) 不行擅自塗改題目。
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被点到的:
1.mun yee
2. yoko
3. edwin
4. jan bong
5.eleena
6. wei see
7. wei teng
8.jie yu
9..yii ann
10.kit yeng


01-[ 4号认识6号吗? ]: no

02-[ 10号是男还是女? ]: female

03-[ 8号的兴趣是? ]: on9..?? sms..??read..??(sry er)

04- [ 1号有没有兄弟姐妹? ]: yes

05-[ 7号姓氏? ]: siew

06-[ 10号人缘好吗? ]: of course *yes

07-[ 4号有人追吗? ]: i don't know.. no gua s he dn tell me

08-[ 承上2号呢? ]:

09-[ 6号喜欢的颜色是? ]: nt sure le.. (sry jie~)

10-[ 3号和10号是朋友吗? ]: consider yes

11-[ 8号的生日是? ]: 21/4

12-[ 5号读哪呢? ]: amc

13-[ 你怎么认识10号的? ]: tuition

14-[ 你跟1号的生日差几个月? ]: 1 mth n 18 days

15-[ 你和9号有出去玩过吗? ]: no er.. lz time ko her hang out bt she's nt free..t.t..
gud luck party count anot??haha

16-[ 你喜欢和2号聊天吗? ]: yes

17-[ 你喜欢和3号在一起吗? ]: yes.. gt high with him 2gtr^^

18-[ 你觉得7号人怎么样? ]:silly

19-[ 你觉得9号人怎么样? ]: caring

20-[ 你爱5号吗? ]: of course la.. my dear wo~~


1. 是谁传給你这份问卷的: my soh mui^^

2. 你们认识多久呢: fren jo almost 1 year

3. 你觉得他(她)对你來说很重要吗: very important!!

4. 你与他(她)的关系是: sister(not real de)

5.你覺得他(她）的個性如何: silly

6. 请问他(她)的兴趣是: on9 n sms gua~ chit-chating

CrY aGaIn =[

it is midnight now
i planned to sleep earlier today
because i am so tired
but somebody mentioned something
and we argued again
i am having gastric since the moment we start to argue
i told YOU but YOU ignored it
YOU just continue to express your feelings
and say whatever YOU want to say
i am now already not gastric
is 'wei Chou jin'
i try to call YOU to stop but YOU don't mind
don't YOU know that gastric will really manage to kill a person??
YOU might don't know the suffer feelings
because YOU didn't experience such a serious pain before
i did gastric till faint before...did YOU?? no~
now.. i rather i pain till faint , unconscious
also don't want to pain till can't breathe like now
once i faint , at least i no need to explain anything to YOU
at least i won't feel the pain
and i no need to stand for the pain to reply YOU
once i am emotional like now since i am crying
it will become more pain due to 'ji dong'
but i just can't stop crying
i believed YOU remember what i said before
if YOU make me cry non-stop for YOU again
there'll be our ending cause i can't stand for it anymore
YOU don't care about it.. why??!!
YOU forget it?? or YOU just think that i was just joking with YOU??
i was not joking when i said so
i was not cause of anger so i said so
I AM NOT.. SO PLEASE DO TAKE SERIOUS OF IT~
but it is too late.. because YOU did it again
i need some time.. to think about the problem
and find a solution for a better us in the future
the future which won't suffer for us like right now~~

accurate!! my characteristics~~

read this n u'll understand me more~~
it was the i answer i get from a test :

性格基因你是個自我壓抑的人，對於事情的看法比較悲觀，雖然害怕挫折和痛苦，面對變局時，仍能冷靜以對，這是你最與眾不同之處。你的成長過程並不如外界或自己期待的順利，感情的路走來也不算順遂。身心的負面經驗，讓你自小就比一般人來得早熟，對於死亡與性的感受深刻，一生似乎都在這兩個議題中打轉。對於自我要求相當嚴格的你，全身上下總是上緊發條，很難完全放鬆。你要小心自己有自殘或是習慣自舔傷口的傾向。對於喜歡的事物，可以一頭栽進去而無法自拔，對於不感興趣 的事物，則是碰都不想碰，對於人你也是如此。

生命路線你是一個意志力很強、幹練、早熟，但不怎麼快樂的人，不管年紀多大，總是給人一種老成的感覺。如何變得更豁達、真正快樂的善待自己，是你必須致力的課題。你性格的矛盾和痛苦點，經常透過感情和與家人的互動展現出來。經常為他人犧牲，但末了又會心不甘情不願，這樣的人生是浪費能量且毫無意義的。對於酒精、咖啡因、尼古丁和藥物的攝取量要節制，否則會受制於這些有害物質。性的壓抑會衍生成對很多事物的不滿。學會用「減法」過日子，才能真正領悟有「捨」才有「得」的道理。

my test~ accurate..??

i played a test in facebook just now~

title:只有十條題目，就測到你對你既男朋友有幾認真!

my result was:

Ａ型：你對你的男朋友有８０％認真

你是個很有愛心的人，無論是什麼都會很愛護的。

但你也是個很怕事的人，做住何事都不太相信自己我直覺，

但你對自己我眼光就很信任，因此你對你的另一半都很信賴，

你不能太過信賴他，否則會有很多事情都會給其他人知道。

由於你過份相信自己的眼光，也會經常戀上另一個，

這點要小心啊！不要太花心。

did it accurate??

i also don't know

some are some aren't

how should i treat you??

i saw something when i viewed some one's blog
although she didn't mention much about it
but actually i already known what was she saying about
i didn't ask her.. cause i was so speechless
i didn't even know how should i face her
can i treat her as usual?? i don't know
she is my good friend.. i don't wish to lose her
but in fact , she did something sorry to me
but she didn't know it.. she didn't know the truth
cause i promised not to tell anybody about it
i knew i shouldn't blame her.. but......
but what can i do?? as i was the 1 who got hurt too
i feel sorry to you too.. i know.....
you'll get hurt too if you know the truth
that's not what i hope.. i can't control it
can we just as close as who we were in the previous time??
it is going to school reopen..we will surely always meet
haiz~~ sorry.. i admit that i treat you cool now
i can't give any response with what you said
give me some more time. i might be fine
we are frenz 4eva!!

to my soh mui~~

i read my soh mui's blog
she doesn't want to let me see it d
but today she invites me
i feel so happy
just like she already fully accept me
and willing to tell me everything about her
i have heart feelings when i am reading it
she is not as cheerful as i think
because obviously....
her parents love her sister more
actually i already know this earlier
but i don't speak out
need not to be so sad about it

soh mui , you still got me
i will be your djj forever
will not leave you d
you have to be tough
don't be silly
you and your sister are different in my heart
both of you playing the different character
please don;t compare with her
and don't suspect your position in my heart
you are mt little mui

i swear...
from now onwards , i got to protect you well
won't let you get hurt anymore
whenever you are trouble
just speak it out to me
anytime....
i will be ready for you!!

boring~~

having hari raya holidays~~
everyone is happy
because can use this time to study for the coming exams
but i don't cause i am so lazy
and really feel very boring in this holidays
i can't hang out to anywhere.. haiz~~
i am gonna crazy to be stayed at home all the times
actually i got many things to do
do the NA board , tuition homework , school works
my koko things , do revision , etc
but i don't have the feel to do it
i less sms this few days
i don't find anyone unless they find me first
i don't know why
but i will still sms you everyday
my first message after i wake up is always to YOU
because you are really important in my heart
i miss you but can't meet you
but seem we have no topic to chat about
why so weird d?? can't find any answer
i want school re-open!!
but don't want exam.. scare

I AM LOOKING FORWARD FOR IT!!!

tomorrow , 19th of sept~~
will be st john f4 and f5 gathering
at breeze cafe from 7-10pm
hahahaha.. i am so excited for it
it is the first time go out with them o
i am going to sing a song for seniors
nervous about it
scare that i cannot sing well
and shame in front of them
i hope i won't
and i will try to do my best
and make all of them enjoy it also

however , i would like to apologise
wei teng and wei see~~
sorry for trouble you two on the songs
and thanks for co-operating with me
let us enjoy tomorrow!!!

你幸福吗?

从朋友变情人有个好处是...
两个人已经熟到某个程度...
所以可以省略初期交往时的尴尬期...

那如果从情人变朋友呢?
那会更珍贵...
因为彼此相爱过...失去过...
会更了解对方...更珍惜这得来不易的友情...
爱情里最残忍的滋味...
是我明明知道我爱你...
而我们却只是好朋友
友情里最自私的胆怯
是你明明知道你爱我
而你还假装只是朋友
幸福需要努力吗?
不努力怎么幸福
希望读过这偏部落格的朋友都会得到幸福...

its too late

i realised that you misunderstood something

you thought there's no place for the new Zealand camp

when did i say so?? you are wrong..

it means my friends are right

if i please you 1 more time

you will allow me to go

but i didn't..just wanna to respect you

but i was wrong.. totally wrong

i should not give up the chance

it was hurt when you told me..

'actually i allowed you to go

but i changed my mind due to H1N1'

then what for you told me about it??

you can just let me just forget about it

why you want to mention it again now??

its harm for me to know that you changed your mind again!!

why you want to give me chance

and push all my hopes at the same moment

can you make a good decision next time??

or can you don't tell me that you were giving chance to me

but now you got to change it??

you just let me give up lo

why do you want to be so cruel to me??

don't you understand me as my mum??

i know 31/8 was the closing date for registration

it was too late

so i planned to forget about it

since i know i would not have chance for it

but why you want to spoil my mood again and again??

i decided to sleep by 10.30 pm

but you called sister to pass a message to me

you said i can go to new Zealand if get the chance

chance?? will i get it?? definitely no!!

because you already rejected the chance that pn tan gave me!!

is you push away my chance but now you said allow me to go?!

it is sooooo " FUNNY " !!

i dropped my tears

i could not sleep

just because of the 1 sentence that you said

so can you please don't ever spoil my mood anymore??

especially when it is time for me to sleep

it is not easy for me to forget this incident

but i have ti force myself to do so

because i can't take you as my enemy

a special day

090909
it was a special day
it was my sister's birthday
but also a very IMPORTANT day for her
she went for R.O.M with her boyfriend
i mean my jie fu now--cagnet
my sis dyed her hair into blue
it was sooooo nice
i went my aunt saloon to set my hair
GOSH!!! the 1 in the mirror really is me??!!
i could not believe it
but i was not really satisfy with my make up

i accompany my sister to BRIDE WORLD
to set her hair and make up
WALAO!!! she is so pretty!!
she is the most special bride
because she is the most sexy
and having a simple but nice hair tying
our car was even the most expensive
and the biggest car
we went to the hall for R.O.M
my sister looked so profitable
i was very happy to see that
because she was having a hearty smile
i wished her in my heart--
jie , i hope you will be happy with cagnet forever

will i have that chance to have this day??
i don't know
will that be my right target??
everything was just a ? for me
will i be as lucky as my sister??
may god bless me

i went for my dinner at 10 something
i was so hungry
but it was worth for me
i followed my sister to SG8
a disco (the previous shutter 8)
i played till 3am
i did go disco before when i was 7 years old
but this would just be my 1st experience
as i did get high and enjoy it
i miss you so much
i hope i can have fun with you
will us get that chance??
i am looking forward for it

cagnet-- my new jie fu..
you don't bully my sister o
but i am sure that you won't

i learned new thing

hahaha.. i had sign up for facebook..

and started to play..

i don't know how to play friend for sale er..

stupid me.. so sad..

but never mind.. because I'll learn it!!

hahahaha.. i played 'restaurant city'..

although it got a bit childish..

but don't know why..

i enjoyed it immensely o..

i also could not believe that I'll play such game..

however , it quite nice o..

thanks wei see intro it to me!!

i played many testes in facebook..

here is one of the results :

你 容 易 被 愛 情 傷 得 很 重 ， 因 為 你 是 個 重 感 情 的 人 ， 總 是 將 全 部 的 心 思 放 在 對 方 身 上。 當 感 情 生 變 ， 你 馬 上 會 不 知 所 措 ， 頓 失 人 生 方 向 ， 這 樣 的 你 ， 失 戀 後 不 容 易 走 出他 的 陰 影 ， 不 但 會 為 情 所 困 ， 更 會 將 自 己 鎖 在 門 內 ， 即 使 出 了 門 也 盡 可 能 地 在 路 人甲 、 乙 、 丙 中 搜 尋 和 他 相 似 的 身 影 ， 故 你 要 療 傷 一 段 長 時 間 ， 才 能 慢 慢 復 原 。

for me , it was very accurate..

but..... haiz~~

there is nothing for me to be proud of..

i hate noise

i went for my dinner

he drank beer with friend

and started to talk nonsense

i didn't like want to answer him

i just kept silence

i enjoyed my tomyam fried rice

its nice and i love it

i wanna to return home

but she seemed want to wait him

i asked her when does she decide to leave

well , she didn't answer me

just kept silence

i hate it

are we going to wait until midnight???!!!

i was not as patient as her

i wanted to return home!!!!!

she just sitting there

didn't about what i did

i showed my impatient face

i threw my hand phone

i was in anger

i felt so sorry to my best friend

since he lent his ear to me

to hear my rude words

sorry EDWIN

i sms him

he knew i was not in mood again

he tried to make me happy

he muack me

whenever i am unhappy

i will think about him

i will happy with his reply

am i really so easy tam??

or i just easy tam by him?

why??

because his mouth is sweet??

because i love him??

haha.. maybe~~

well , i need to thank him for always being by my side

our problem

you said i love you less than the time before
you feel it?? do i?? i don't know
u worry that i will love other guy
you said you afraid of losing me
then why you want to make me tired again and again??
loves the heart that hurts you but never hurt the heart that loves you

you said sorry to me
i know you dropped your tears
if you think you have nothing wrong
why want to apologise to me??
if you really feel sorry
then why want to do it again and again??
you make me get hurt and tired to love you
you hurt me because i hurt you right??
that's your answer

whenever i feel tired and almost can't stand for it
you sure will treat me specially good
tell me you feel sorry and cry
my heart will be so pain when hear it
and i will definitely forgive everything that is harm to me
but once i decided to love you fully
you repeat it again and make me feel sad
then you realised and apologise
OM MY GOD
i really fed up
that's our main problem
can we solve it??
i don't think so
but once it be there , we will be suffer
what can i do for it??
i don't want to get tired for you anymore
but..............
OH DAMN
i don't have any idea now
my brain is sucked!!

what do i have??

a junior sms me
said she admire me
i know who is that
but just can't believe
i did admire 2 seniors before
but i don't expect it'll happen on me
i can't find anything for her to admire
she said i am leng lui , kind , etc
am i?? obviously no
i m already popular with my cool and fierce look
how come she said i don't fierce at all??
i am wondering
just because i borrowed her notes to copy before
walao
by the way , i thanks her very much for her admiration

i am so suffer~~

2/9
huh~~ it was the 1st day my 'best friend' come..
i was suffering from pain..
i missed you so so so much..
i wished to get support from you immediately..
but i know its impossible..
you were having exam far away..
no matter how was i suffering..
i still wished you in my heart:
"dear , you must add oil ya "
did you hear it??

3/9
i changed new timetable and have new teacher for my science (miss lee)..
she explained very well..
it was the first time i understood what teacher taught about science throughout this year..
because the previous teacher...........
OMG!!!
HER ENGLISH PRONUNCIATION WAS SOOOO BAD..
COULDN'T EVEN HEAR WHAT SHE SAID..
DIDN'T KNOW WHAT SHE TAUGHT ALSO..
PITY 4S1..
i feel glad and happy now to have miss lee as my teacher!!
wakakaka

you seemed no mood or angry..
why?? what happened to you??
i also didn't know what i can do for you..
u didn't reply me leh..
u don't want me le ma??
or just because of trial so you busy?
haix
worry again..

人

我最爱的人
不一定是最爱我的人
最爱我的人
不一定是我最爱的人
陪着我下半辈子的人
不一定是我最爱的人或最爱我的人
只是两个人在对的时见遇上了对方
而你...
又是我生命中的哪一个人呢?