NIGHT MARKET

i went to night market with KIT YENG and SHARON just now

there were a few things happened

i felt so fish n funny too

they were just kept laughing at me , especially KY

1st~ there was a little buy ran towards me n hugged me

2nd~ there was a boy kept on swinging his plastic bag n hit me

*he was definitely not purposely*

3rd~ there was a little indian girl beat my arm

then she looked at me n flashed a smile

* don't worry , i was sure that she is a human being

as all my friend could see her

n i was sure she is not insane too*

4th~ there was a little Boy stepped on my shoes

OMG!! WHAT HAPPENED TO ME TODAY??

kept on disturbing by kids...??!!

when i was ready to return home with KY

i thought nothing would happen anymore

who knows...... something more unbelievable happened!

5th~ a teenager suddenly showed his hand to me n said 'hi'

i did really got shock that time

as i didn't even know who was that

luckily , he left immediately after he said 'hi' n smiled to me

OMG~!! What day is today??

so many supernatural things happened together

just in that two hours , not a long period of time

but no matter how , i was happy too=)

it was just TOO FUNNY!

HOLIDAYS!

finally spm trial was OVER!!
my life can back to normal^^
i cam reply my friends' messages nicely
chat with everyone s much s i want=)
having holidays now
what m i goin to do??
woohoo~~ full of appointments~
but still have to self-control a bit
DONT WANT TO HANG OUT EVERYDAY
it is too tiring
so... i m sorry that i had rejected some of my friends
paiseh ya friends , wait for next time ba~
now , i had planned my holidays well
everyday , i will have a programme for myself^^
LNJ is going to enjoy her holidays much!!
because my dear n sister are coming back to ipoh=)
n i will b following my sister to singapore too=)
but truly , not really wish to go
because i will return on 14th night
reach on 15th morning n go to school directly=(
so... I M GOING TO SLEEP IN CLASS~
wakakaka~
*HAPPY HOLIDAYS*

*冤枉*

再一次。。。我被朋友背叛了~
这次并不让我觉得心痛
我只是失望了，也绝望了
你竟然把我告诉你的东西
全部扭曲了在告诉别人
把这么大的一个罪名套在我身上
让某人误会了我、找我算帐
难道你不知道得罪了他是没有好下场的吗？
为什么~为什么要如此陷害我？
我有做过事么对不起你的事吗？
果然。。。你跟xxxx xxx是好朋友
怎样的人就合怎样的人交朋友
他可以为了一个她深爱着但又不爱她的人。。。
把我发的信息转发与他~
而你也为了你崇拜的人。。。
把所有的事情嫁祸于我~
难道你就不知道。。
你的一句谎言可足以毁了我的一生吗？
无论我怎么解释当事人都不愿意相信我
难道你就不知道她是个多有威力的人吗？
她教训我的东西越来越多了
因为你的冤枉，我受尽压力
因为你的冤枉，我收到投诉
因为你的冤枉，我名誉受损
你知不知道我在别人心目中的人格有多好？
就因为你的一句话，我的形象差透了
就是因为你，我有可能前途尽毁！
你知不知道就因为你说过的一句话
我需要付出多大的代价？？！！
我讨厌你、我恨你！！
*我们的友情到此结束*

从此以后，我再也不会一百巴仙地相信一个人了

another night that i m having insomnia
reason?? it is always the same
just BECAUSE OF YOU
why?? why everything would become like that?
i knew that's my fault for not picking your call
but i really couldn't
i was having dinner with my mum that time
really sorry for it=(
i apologised
but... it was the time the problem started
u just replied 'oh'
were u angering with me?
yea~ i think u were
from that onwards , every of your messages was just a single word
again~ u were cool to me
i act nothing happen n text u s usual
but... u didn't reply me anymore
told u i was free , u had no response
after half an hour , u told me u were playing
is that games r important than me?
it was not the first time , every time u do
why did u wanna tell me that u would b free anytime if u wanna play?
haix~ disappointed~ but i didn't blame u today
because i was the 1 who wrong first
well , i just called u to enjoy it
n again , u didn't reply me
didn't even have the word 'oh'
haix~ every time also like that
no matter how much i don't hope to be away from u
i have to say the same thing 'u go play la~'
just because that's what u hope to get
but u dare not to ask it from me
but u will never know how heart pain was i when i said so
u asked me when did u treat me cool
i told u but u replied something that i unexpected
'never mind~ when also never mind~'
u didn't mind it then y did u want to ask me?
ya~ never mind
i knew that i m not important for u s what i was in the previous time
u won't care much about me anymore
so... what i said was not important to u too~
u didn't reply me again
where had u gone to?
what were u doing?
the feeling of missing u was getting more
would i disturb u if i sms u?
i cancelled my sending message for many times
but finally , i sent u , told u how unhappy was i about us
what was your response?
'nothing need to fan , k?'
u don't think u did cool to me
so that's not a problem for u?
are u b TOO optimistic?
u said before that u had never replied me with a single word message
so u were not consider s cool to me
but today... u did?
so weren't we getting worse?
but it seemed nothing for u~

do u still remember what had u told me that night?
'请允许我再许下一次承诺 ，不想再冷落 ，不甘你寂寞
再一次相信我 ，好吗？'
i did really believe n confident to u
so whenever i felt u r cool
i will try to stand for it
because i told myself that u will change
u will , because u love me~ i know it
but... can i really stand for it?
can i really think that nothing had happened?
i cried almost every night nowadays
i m too rely on u~
u told me 'yesterday i purposely called u
because i want chat with u today with the free talktime
but now 12am already , my rm2 wasted.'
n in another message , u said 'early know don't call u'
do u know how heart pain was i when u said so?
today , i did chat with u , but just not more than half an hour
u forgot what u said yesterday?
we had long time didn't chat on phone
n u like the feel chatting with me
then what had u said just now??
just because today we didn't spend all your free talktime
so u felt that's a kind of wasting money
yea~ chatting with me was just a kind of wasting money
that's what u think in your mind? ok~
u told me 'our time not suit'
this sentence sounds familiar?
yes~ because i sis say the same sentence to you before
do u still remember what u answered me that time?
'it will be alright if we love each other'
then now? u were saying the same sentence to me
at this moment , i m sitting in front of my laptop to express my feeling
i planned not to type it out
but i really can't stand for it anymore
i wish to throw my hand phone when i read your message
i wish ot hide a side n cried out loudly
but i can't , i have to hide it in my heart
just don't wanna my family think that i m getting crazy
my heart was so pain , n i got gastric seriously again
n this time was more serious~
because i m having headache
it is not as same as the headache which i usually got
it is much more painner
n the position... was on my old injury
will i get any problem?
i m afraid of it , but don't decide to do anything

finally... i believe this sentence
'how u treat others , that's how they will treat back u'
but i found that it will just happened on bad things
because how good i treat others , i won't get back the same
so no matter how u hurt me now , i m not going to angry u nor blame u
just heart pain by myself , because that's what i should accept
just because i knew that u hurt u deeply before
so it is the time i should pay it back for you
does it mean that after i get hurt like how much i hurt you before
then we will be alright?
if yes , i m willing to b hurt by you
because i do really hope that we can live together in the future
do u? i hope so , so i hope u will gambateh with me
i told myself ,i won't give up no matter how much i hurt
because i know...
if i give up once more , i can't hold u back anymore
i rather to b s suffer s now than losing u once more
but....i don't hope we Will be like that anymore
can we don't argue because of the same problem again n again?
i don't hope anyone one of us will feel tired n wanna give up again
i really don't wish it will happen , don't you?
DEAR~ I LOVE YOU~ forever~ i know u too~
so... can we... just... avoid this?

trial

finally it came to friday
trial had started for a week
how did i perform in it?
i will just answer u~
'totally die=('
truly disappointed to myself
especially for my history
i got the worst result in my life
worse than my 2009 final year exam
what happened to me?
can't i just focus on exam n do it well?
yea~ i really can't
i was not even 100% serious in it
what i got for my history
actually was what i expected
because i didn't read at all!!
how can LNJ be like this??
don't i know how important of the forecast result to me?
ish~ really hate myself for being that useless
that day my tuition teacher asked me
'are u very stress during exam?'
i wondered why she asked so
she told me that the malay questions were easy
due to my standard of malay
i should know how to answer it
but... haix~ maybe.. she's right~
don't know why... i just couldn't think anything during the exam
why will i feel stress for this exam??
i did not have such feeling before
i didn't even have any feeling during my pmr is on
owh~ come on LNJ~
b back yourself n relax!!
if not... your result will just getting worse!
*2 more weeks to go..
i hope i can do what i had promised to myself*

it is just AROUND THE CORNER

SPM trial is coming soon
i said that I wanted to study once july
but till now , august had started too
i still didn't do my revision well
i m afraid of the exam
because i do really put much hope on it
i need the good result
i need it for getting scholarship
i need it to have a bright future
n i wished to balance myself with u
but y can't i do so?
i m so stress now
cried for it , i scare that i can't get what i want
what i need is support from u actually
but.... haix~ i m not deserved it i know...
felt that myself had wasted much time
can i do well in exam with such attitude?
no , definitely i can't
u r right , its too late for me if i aim for trial
u were totally right
but truly , i still wish to do well
i still wish to b hardworking like u
i had never cheated u , really~
but sorry. i knew that i had disappointed u
i knew that my self-control is not good at al
sorry , just don't put any hope on me anymore~

annual parade

i was totally stress with what they said to me
i afraid that i would make any mistake during the competition
we trained on Thursday n Friday
but we seemed getting worse n worse
i really scared that i couldn't do well enough
i scared that i would spoil the whole team
this was my last year going for annual parade as a NA member
so i must do my best n get the trophy
we got to win!! that's our target for every year^^
the marching was over
it was so fast n i felt that i didn't perform well
sun shining mercilessly
i was so hot , sweat a lot
i moved my hands n legs
just wanna make sure that i wouldn't faint
i tried my best to stand until the end n luckily i did
is was time to announce the result
firstly , we got the 5th highest duty hour award
it came to the most important moment~
my heart beats were so fast
everyone of my team was so nervous
n finally~~ we won!! NA 17 WON!!
well , we were so happy
clapped our hands loudly n we shouted after dismissed
we were so so so happy n excited of it!!
we made it!! all the efforts that we put in were not wasted
however , i saw disappointment on the juniors' face
i was sad that they were not happy
because NC didn't win for the competition
well , its ok my dear juniors...
all of u are still young n can try next year
never give up! i will come back to support u all if i can^^
I M PROUD WITH U GIRLS :)
i love all of u=)
i love amc st john~
FORWARD LET US MARCH!

after my stomach scanning=(

my stomach scanning report

my medicines

i did my scanning on 20th July 2010

i would never forget this date

because it was such a BIG DAY for me

it was my 1 month anniversary with my dear

but at the same time , it was my scarest day in my life
i was going to do my stomach scanning

many of my friends cared about it

thank you very much!!

thanks for calling me n asked me to stand for it

thanks for supporting me n accompanying me when i need you

thanks for everything that u guys did!

however , it was a good news that i didn't have any cancer disease

but .... it was not really a good news for me

doctor said i was considered as a serious case as i m just 17th

he asked me that whether i was always emotional

for sure , i would b honest n answered 'yes'

so... he told me that i can't eat so much spicy food anymore=(

must be optimistic always n can't become so emotional

i have to eat on time for every meals

i have to keep my emotion stable n relax always

n for sure , i need to have treatments n body check up

i have to take plenty types of medicine

i hate to eat medicine very much

it gets worse that i still need to eat it 30 minutes before every meals

omg~!! i m just 17th!! but i have to b controlled my medicine in the rest of my life

such a boring life for me?? no fun anymore

everyday i will hear the same sentence from my mum

'remember to eat medicine a..'

gosh~ can i stop eating it??

i don't wish to obey it n become so 'sistematic' of eatin medicine

have fun at parade kbox^^

24/07/10~

went parade with wai loon (my dear) , khar mun (my lao gong) ,huei min(my sai lou) n chin mun (my mui)

so sad that my sis-in-law , claudia can't go along with us=(

as what khar mun promised , she treated me for my lunch^^

we went to kbox n had fun there

we sang many songs , but most were sad love songs

suddenly , something came into my mind

~words that u said to me n your attitude in these few days~

i... my mood became very down

all of u asked me what happened but i just couldn't answer

because i didn't really know what happened to me

as i just moody once i woke up early in the morning

once i saw n heard the lyrics , i felt like wanna cry

but for sure , i controlled myself

i failed... i dropped my tears in front of you
that's my first time n i swore that it would b my last time too

i will never let u c me cry anymore

sorry~ i knew that u were worrying me

i knew that you were heart aching through your face expression
how much i wished to hug u tightly n cried

but i didn't , just cried beside you

sorry for not answering what happened to me at that time

because i was just afraid that i would cry more seriously

it may be the last chance for us to meet before my trial

the fear feelings came into my heart

i felt so scare... scare that we will have problem if we don't meet

just like what happened last year

i don't want n don't wish it will happen again~

tat's y i tried my best to meet u once a week

however , we had to say goodbye to each other

truly , i didn't feel like wanna leave

didn't wish to walk to the entrance

but i must do so.. sorry~

bye my dear~ take good care of yourself at kampar~

anyway , i was enjoying myself immensely today

it was so fun that i saw them wearing dress n skirt^^

all of u looked so pretty la friends=)

hope we can hang out again after trial!

another =( day for me

u asked me that whether u had disappointed me many times for today
what did u expect me to answer?? yes?? no??
if u felt so , u should know what are the problems
then why r u still repeating n repeating??
u know every Friday i do need your support
but then where were u?? cyber cafe..
ok , never mind , because that's what a boy like to do
i also didn't blame u for helping dad
u asked me do i feel that u didn't really bother about me
yes , u did , honestly~
u asked me what should u change but i said no need
u told me that nowadays u won't jealous for me anymore
n also won't angry if i don't mind u
do u know actually... your sentences hurt me deeply?
just feel that.. it had no meaning anymore~
but thanks for being honest to me
u told me your hand phone had no battery
n u gotta go fro dinner
after i woke up from nap , i sms u
but i didn't get any reply from u
never mind , just thought that u were busying
when i log in my facebook , that's the problem
i saw u were on lining
that meant u were at cyber cafe again
i was so so so disappointed with it
u said u had told me your Mobile had no battery
yes , u did, but i didn't even know that u hadn't return home after dinner
n i didn't even expect u went to cyber cafe twice a day
but i could not blame u about it , that's your freedom
i know u will definitely become very busy whenever u online
especially when u were playing games
so i just asked u to enjoy when u said sorry to me
every time when i know u r doing something else
i will ask u to continue it n ignore me
then... u will really didn't reply me at all
do u know how hurt was i?
i would say so was just because i was heart paining
i hope that u will continue reply me even it Will be late
but i don't mind , as long as u did reply
u apologised to me again n again
will u feel bore or tire with it??
as u know.... i hate people's apologises
then y r u still keep on saying sorry to me?
don't u know that the word 'sorry' from you to me was really very hurt?
it will just increase my feeling of heartache
*so please... u can do whatever u want , but no apologise anymore*