haiz~~

i woke up by a scary dream
i feel very scare
there was a dog touching me
i hate it..
i passed my day without doing anything special thing
my sister called me
she told me the thing about brother , jenny and samantha
it shocked me
i not really can accept it
but i respect my brother's decision
at night you message me with your mum's phone
u called me not to hide anything from you anymore
do i??
no
i don't
can you please don't always suspect me??
haiz~~
tomorrow is your exam
so i choose to stop this topic
sorry

the last day !!!!

haha

today is the last day of this august holidays!!!

hurray!!

this is the day i am looking for!!!

because i am very bored with my holidays

just hang out , watch dvd , do my st john record things......

one word--BORED!!!

and i miss my dear friends so so so much!!

haha

i miss the time we recess together..

we hang around the school together..

and we chat and play happily together..

haha

my dear!!!

we will meet tomorrow!!!!

wakakaka

but tomorrow i am going to stay back..

i am going to continue do my record things

huh

i feel tired but i must still try my best for it!!

lnj , +u!!

will i meet you tomorrow??

huh~~

that's a question mark for me..

well , tomorrow is SPM trial o..

i wish my dear , my gor , all my st john and debate seniors:

GOOD LUCK AND ALL THE BEST!!!!

are you regret??

you talked to me once i woke up..
you brought me to have my breakfast..
you fetched me to the book shop..
you cared with whatever i did..
you said you will fetch me tonight..
you asked for the time..
i said i don't know..
then you asked me to call you..
why you did not scold me like what you did yesterday??
are you regret with what you did??
i lose nothing if i lose you..
but you lose everything if you lose me..
SO PLEASE...
make it clear that who am i to you..
i am not your toy..
so PLEASE..
do not scold me when you are moody;
treat me good when you need my help!!
i have bored with what you did..
it seemed fake..
and i want to tell you:
it is too late for you to apologise..

yeng or weird??

25th~~

haha.. this is wei teng's spectacles..

chai yan , wei teng and sook han said:

'wa.. lnj!! u very yeng a!!'

i was wondering with what they said..

i mms my picture to my best friend , edwin..

he said i was weird.. T.T

then my soh mui , mun yee , asked me mms to her..

she said its nice..

i showed it to my mum n kit yeng..

they said i m pretty..

huh~~

whose comment is accurate??

should i buy 1 for myself??

i don't know leh..

but if i buy it , don't know when i get chance to wear it..

i hope to get comment from YOU..

but i could not mms you..

when will i get chance to show you neh??

to friends who view my blog :

please leave me your comment on this my look with this spectacles..

thanks o^^

meaningfull to sad

27th -- i was very happy... it was our 1 year and 5 months anniversary o..
but my maxis expired already.. sorry~~
i went lost world with aunt and my cousin , sam..
i enjoyed myself immensely but very tired.. haha..
in the evening, we went parade to have our meal..
waow.. i like the Japanese food much..
thanks aunt for her treat..

i very happy at my tuition class..
i laughed non-stop for 2 hours..
i finished tuition at 10 pm..
my mood was spoiled with his 1 loud sentence..
'DON'T KNOW THEN DON'T GO !!'
i kept silence when i heard this..
i admit...
i was very angry that time..
and i hate him much at that moment..
i did not want to eat what he bought for supper..
i did not even look at him..
i did not to hear any of his sounds..

my mum knew i was in anger and was weird..
i just kept silence..
my eyes started to get wet..
i did not allow it to drop any tear..
i started to tell my mum what was happening..
i could not stand for it anymore..
the tears were rolling down..
my shirt was wet..
i tried myself best to stop it but i failed..
few of my friends kept on counselling me..
thanks them so much for it..
gl and edwin (both my special friends)..
THANK YOU SOOOOOO MUCH..
LOVE YOU YEA~~
i need you at this time..
but the expired sim did not allow me to contact you..
sorry~~ i let someone spoiled our day..
i miss u so much..

the 1st day

today is the first day of this holidays..

my previous holidays were full of programmes..

but this time no..

just because of the h1n1..

i hate it..

it makes me lose my freedom..

you didn't sms me today..

i didn't blame you because you have your own reason..

my dear~~I MISS YOU SO MUCH..

i hope to see you now..

i am waiting for your message..

will you find chance to sms me tonight??

i am waiting for it..

but the problem is...

we have no topic to chat although we miss each other..

I should HAPPY or DISAPPOINT ??

today is last day of my august test.. i was very nervous..

because i scared that i cannot get good results in my econ and account..

i just spent 20 minutes to finish the account!!!

and i got the answer!!!!

wakakaka..

**well , i am not showing off.. just i really feel very happy and i hope to share with all of you=]

but however , my econ.. not that good..

what i want is not just get A..

i want to maintain my highest marks in my class..

but... i know... i fail to do so this time..

i am so disappoint to myself..

i said to myself before..

'i could not go up the stage and get any reward for my pmr...

but i must go up the stage to get the cert of the highest mark in whole form 4 for any subject..'

it is just possible for me to get it on account , econ and science..

but my science not really that good..

my account worse during the last exam..

so i just left my hope on me econ..

because i already got the highest marks in class for two times..

so i got to maintain it..i scare..i will lose the chance...

i want to prove to everyone that i don't choose wrong subject and class..

i hope that my mum will feel proud to own me this daughter..

i hope that i won't drop your face as your results are good..

haiz~

sorry to all of you n....myself too..

sorry~~

boring weekend

once i wake up , i saw your message.. you sound sweet and happy..
is it mean that we already nothing??
so i am trying my best not to say about what we argue yesterday..
huh~
yesterday..15th of august..
i think this was the day we argue most seriously..right??
but on this day.. i finally dare to speak it out..
i told you my secret which i had kept in my heart for so long..
thank you for forgiving me..
thank you for don't mind about it..
thank you for everything..

really thank you very much..

i am so bored today..
just spending my time to online..
you saw my blog..
then why you doesn't have any response??
huh~i am speechless..
and i know you too..
tomorrow will be my last day exam..
but they are the most important subjects...
account and economy asas
can i score it??
can i maintain the highest mark in class like what i did during the last two exams??
i really don't know..
i am not so confident on it..
but i'll try my best..

good luck to myself..
all the best to you , jee..

珍惜

人...是否真的要失去过才懂得珍惜呢?
我曾经做错过...也差点永远地失去你...但我回头了...
我现在正努力地补偿一切...
而你...也曾放弃过...但你挽回了...
所以我们现在才有机会再次拥有对方...
我现在很珍惜与你一起的每一分每一秒...因为我害怕再失去你...
你是否跟我一样呢?
还是你已经觉得我们的感情没有意义了?
每当你似乎要放弃时,我的心都会痛得无法呼吸...
我希望你不会放弃...因为这一次一旦你放弃了...
那就会是我们的结束了...因为.....我不会挽回,也不会接受你的挽回...
这是我们最后的一次机会了...不是因为我不爱你...只是...我不想大家越爱越累...
所以...我们一起努力好不好?
把握这次的机会...不要再轻易放弃这次机会...
老公,我爱你...
请不要离开我...愿我们的感情长久...

give up or maintain???

'u are talking with the boy that u love but want to break with you before'
this was what u sent to me.. i could not sleep.. that's why i came to write my blog..because i wanted to write out my feelings..
it was already in the past..
your incident had passed longer time than mine..
i can put it down and start again.. why can't you??
both of us did hurt each other before..
but i chose to forget it because i don't it to spoil our relationship..
then why are you still like that?? u are living in the past..
can u just put it down and look forward like what am i trying to do??

'i really wish to break with u that time..no feel..'
this msg that u sent just now was making a scar on my heart..
i felt the painess of my heart..
but i let it go and try to become happy..
i success to do so..

am i suffering??
i don't know..
i am glad to own you..
but i am sad to see you thinking about the past..
i don't know what should i do..
definitely i won't choose to give up..
but will you??
i had really no confident on it..
last time i was very confident to our love and i will be able to say:

'he won't leave me d..i trust him..'

but i found that i was toooo silly and tooo confident..
because u did it..
now..i don't dare to say sooo anymore..
because i know..
u will do it whenever u can't stand for it..
whenever u think back the incident..
u rather to give up me also don't choose to forget it????
why?????
i felt quite disappoint..
but i know that's your style..
so i accept it..

why want to make both of us suffer??
haiz~~
may i know what are you going to do next???
give up or maintain???

WHAT CAN I DO???

12/8

u told me that we had no topic to chat with..

u didn't reply my msg..what does it mean??

u said that i do not understand u..

i admit.. but is that really such a big problem??

can't we just try to improve it and gambateh together??

y must u repeat and repeat the things that had passed??

it already over!!!

14/8

i know u are in trouble..

i am trying my best to find topic..

but you are too cool..

its sooo scary to me..

are you thinking to give up??

i don't hope so..

no matter how tired am i..

i will still gambateh for it..

for our own good and for our future..

i don't wish to lose you and don't want too..

i need you..sooo much...

u r SILLY

i know you are not in mood today... i don't know what happen to you...
i felt myself is very useless... because i could not identify your problem well... aikx.. will you feel disappoint on me?? you may..
my heart is soooo pain till could not breathe when you seem speechless cause of your moody condition..
i do not hope to see you become like that... i want to help you but i don't know what can i do..
i hope that you Can be cheerful and stay happy all the times...
can you promise to do so??no.. you are not.. definitely you can't.. i know it.. u know why??
BECAUSE YOU ARE SOOOOOO SILLY...



i want to let you know.. you are not that bad.. please be confident to yourself as i am confident to you too.. can you please trust what i said???
you are clever.. at least cleverer than me.. you are caring for me.. you are in a good look.. and i know you love me much.. that's enough..
you are really good.. not just in my heart.. but in my friends' eyes too.. so please believe us..
do not think that you are not suit with me cause you are not enough good.. no.. what you think is wrong.. nobody is prefect in this world.. so please do nit compare yourself with anyone else.. because you are yourself.. your own self.. nobody will be same with you.. and you need not to change yourself to be another you.. no.. please don't do that.. because the 1 i love is you.. the natural you..

YOU ARE GOOD..MAN..PLEASE BE CONFIDENT!!

i do not hope you to be such a silly person.. i know it just will make you suffer and make me sad too.. whenever you are blaming yourself.. my heart is sooo pain.. and i will be very worry.. i scare it will affect our relationship.. i scare you will cannot stand for it and choose to give up..
my dear...
please do not give up me anymore.. no matter what happen and how u change , i will accept it.. i hope to stay by your side forever.. let me accompany you to face all the problems and let us solve it together , OK??
please give me the chance.. i will not let you go easily anymore..
and lastly.. cheer up baby =]
i hope we will stay happy together everyday.. hope you'll enjoy your life with me^^



THE ONLY PEOPLE NOT MAKING MISTAKES AND FAILED BEFORE , ARE THOSE WHO AREN'T DOING ANYTHING...

i LOSE it

i had my st john cooking competition at st john HQ just now.. my team was very confident on it as we did a lot of preparations.. we prepared the bamboo , coconuts , orange skins.. what we expected were provided.. chicken , watermelon , egg and the same vegetable that we used for the practise last time.. we were the first group to finish our job.. we did our job well and fast..
but i saw them--NA J.. they were very creative so i expected they would get the champion.. unless their food did not taste well..
the judge tasted our food... but she just tasted the rice and chicken... why??? how about the rest??? i was wondering it...

we changed our uniform... i looked smart in my new adult uniform.. i liked it much..

we sat in the hall n waited for the result.. i was nervous about it.. i thought we at least can get the 3rd.. so it would not be too bad... the 3rd and 2nd oso nt belong to us.. i started to worry because my mind told me that we would not get the 1st.. but once the final result had not being announced, we still could have hope on it..

the moment had come.. the final result was...

WE LOST

i could not control my emotion well.. i dropped my tears.. i dare not to have a look at PN TAN n JESSMIN because i dissapointed both of them.. i felt sorry to them as i knew that they put the hope on our team.. JESSMIN purposely came to HQ to support us but we could not get anything for her..

Jessmin , sorry

I would like to appologise to everyone but i did not have the bravery to do so..
i failed to perform well today.. the result proved that our food taste was not good as obviously that our decoration was very good.. as the one who tasted the food , i was failure..it was my fault..

wai yee , wei see and kit yeng , very sorry...

i saw wei see and kit yeng cried.. i understood the feelings.. we were the champion team for last year cadet team , but this year coulld not get any prize.. the feel was not good at all.. HAIZ~
Shall i take part next year?? i really don't know.. i have no confident on it anymore.. i seem have the wish to give up...

全因为你

因为你,我打开心房
因为你,我给了彼此一个机会
因为你,我开始有了思念
因为你,我再度掉下眼泪
你就像一颗洋葱,
我想不断地去了解它,
于是我不停地剥它
一片一片...
而在剥的过程中,
我不断地流泪,
剥到最后才发现,
原来洋葱没有心
因为爱你,所以不再让你困扰
因为爱你,所以宁愿自已难过
因为爱你,所以我逼自己离开
如果有一天,
你走进我的心里,
你一定会哭,
因为里面装满你的点滴
如果有一天,
我走进你的心里,
我也一定会哭,
因为里面没有我的身影