i LOSE it

i had my st john cooking competition at st john HQ just now.. my team was very confident on it as we did a lot of preparations.. we prepared the bamboo , coconuts , orange skins.. what we expected were provided.. chicken , watermelon , egg and the same vegetable that we used for the practise last time.. we were the first group to finish our job.. we did our job well and fast..
but i saw them--NA J.. they were very creative so i expected they would get the champion.. unless their food did not taste well..
the judge tasted our food... but she just tasted the rice and chicken... why??? how about the rest??? i was wondering it...

we changed our uniform... i looked smart in my new adult uniform.. i liked it much..

we sat in the hall n waited for the result.. i was nervous about it.. i thought we at least can get the 3rd.. so it would not be too bad... the 3rd and 2nd oso nt belong to us.. i started to worry because my mind told me that we would not get the 1st.. but once the final result had not being announced, we still could have hope on it..

the moment had come.. the final result was...

WE LOST

i could not control my emotion well.. i dropped my tears.. i dare not to have a look at PN TAN n JESSMIN because i dissapointed both of them.. i felt sorry to them as i knew that they put the hope on our team.. JESSMIN purposely came to HQ to support us but we could not get anything for her..

Jessmin , sorry

I would like to appologise to everyone but i did not have the bravery to do so..
i failed to perform well today.. the result proved that our food taste was not good as obviously that our decoration was very good.. as the one who tasted the food , i was failure..it was my fault..

wai yee , wei see and kit yeng , very sorry...

i saw wei see and kit yeng cried.. i understood the feelings.. we were the champion team for last year cadet team , but this year coulld not get any prize.. the feel was not good at all.. HAIZ~
Shall i take part next year?? i really don't know.. i have no confident on it anymore.. i seem have the wish to give up...