give up or maintain???

'u are talking with the boy that u love but want to break with you before'
this was what u sent to me.. i could not sleep.. that's why i came to write my blog..because i wanted to write out my feelings..
it was already in the past..
your incident had passed longer time than mine..
i can put it down and start again.. why can't you??
both of us did hurt each other before..
but i chose to forget it because i don't it to spoil our relationship..
then why are you still like that?? u are living in the past..
can u just put it down and look forward like what am i trying to do??

'i really wish to break with u that time..no feel..'
this msg that u sent just now was making a scar on my heart..
i felt the painess of my heart..
but i let it go and try to become happy..
i success to do so..

am i suffering??
i don't know..
i am glad to own you..
but i am sad to see you thinking about the past..
i don't know what should i do..
definitely i won't choose to give up..
but will you??
i had really no confident on it..
last time i was very confident to our love and i will be able to say:

'he won't leave me d..i trust him..'

but i found that i was toooo silly and tooo confident..
because u did it..
now..i don't dare to say sooo anymore..
because i know..
u will do it whenever u can't stand for it..
whenever u think back the incident..
u rather to give up me also don't choose to forget it????
why?????
i felt quite disappoint..
but i know that's your style..
so i accept it..

why want to make both of us suffer??
haiz~~
may i know what are you going to do next???
give up or maintain???